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[imunderoath]

good. its about time i saw your face again. are you finally ready? are you finally ready to turn to me? are you finally ready to give the crap-filled life up? can you see me? i was shouting for quite some time... did you hear me? well anyways, i am glad your here. i would rather not have you anywhere else right now. dont worry... i see those tears... ill hold you right now.... settle ...

are you finally ready? are you ready to dust your self off? did you know that i dont make mistakes and i know what i am doing? you have talent, dont you worry... how can i show you what life is if you dont look at me? can you see me? i was shouting for quite some time... did you hear me? well anyways, i love you and though i am hurt i love you... this is only a season did you hear me? i said i love you....

Today was bad... i honestly felt like a true failure... i felt like a no-talent mess up and i honestly was the closest to leaving everything and everyone and just going to be by myself than i have ever been... i have never wanted to cry so bad, and as a guy thats a tough thing to handle... i am unsure what is happening but i am watching it unfold right in front of me... my dreams... are they even mine? i want to abandon everything so bad, but i am afriad thats not an option... today was a confidence crusher and i am quite impressed that my head is still raised... things need changing..... things=me

My Life is Altered