Bring me down.
Last night was one of those nights of
roller coaster emotions. I didn't
know that i could go from completely excited to
bummed out beyond belief in just a matter of seconds.
HE talked to me. It made me want to
vomit. I couldn't get rid of the sickness in my
stomach. I felt like i couldn't breathe.
That something was essentially cutting off
my circulation and that i was going to die.
I couldn't figure out why
i wanted so much for things to change this time.
That always seems to be the case when it comes to
me and him.
WE are great, then we suck. Then we find each other again.
THe cycle doesn't end.
Unfortunately, i feel like in the cycle,
I'm losing those who i thought were close
mainly because those people know nothing about me.
I'm full of angst and hatred that i don't know
what to do with myself.
I feel left out but then I feel like I could less about it.
I miss what life was like before drugs,
before depression, before this.
roller coaster emotions. I didn't
know that i could go from completely excited to
bummed out beyond belief in just a matter of seconds.
HE talked to me. It made me want to
vomit. I couldn't get rid of the sickness in my
stomach. I felt like i couldn't breathe.
That something was essentially cutting off
my circulation and that i was going to die.
I couldn't figure out why
i wanted so much for things to change this time.
That always seems to be the case when it comes to
me and him.
WE are great, then we suck. Then we find each other again.
THe cycle doesn't end.
Unfortunately, i feel like in the cycle,
I'm losing those who i thought were close
mainly because those people know nothing about me.
I'm full of angst and hatred that i don't know
what to do with myself.
I feel left out but then I feel like I could less about it.
I miss what life was like before drugs,
before depression, before this.