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i'm not doing this for me, i'm doing it for you. i want good things to happen for you. i want you to be happy.
i feel sick. the corner i have been forced into is not a comfortable one. i am afraid. for myself and others. mostly for others, because they have no idea how stupid they really are. i know how stupid i am. i tell myself everyday.
you people are all horrible, but i love you anyway. i love myself even though i'm a selfish slut. i love you even though you are intent on destroying yourself. i love you even though you don't love yourself. i love you even though you don't love me.
being selfless doesn't count if you have some expectation of return. that's just not how it works.
leave me alone. i don't want your ego or your pride. i want you to be here for me like i've tried to be here for you.
sick sick sick people. human beings are disgusting.
no amount of any chemical will change my mind. i don't want it changed. stop hiding from the truth. quit lying to yourself. quit forcing everyone else to lie to you.
i feel sick. the corner i have been forced into is not a comfortable one. i am afraid. for myself and others. mostly for others, because they have no idea how stupid they really are. i know how stupid i am. i tell myself everyday.
you people are all horrible, but i love you anyway. i love myself even though i'm a selfish slut. i love you even though you are intent on destroying yourself. i love you even though you don't love yourself. i love you even though you don't love me.
being selfless doesn't count if you have some expectation of return. that's just not how it works.
leave me alone. i don't want your ego or your pride. i want you to be here for me like i've tried to be here for you.
sick sick sick people. human beings are disgusting.
no amount of any chemical will change my mind. i don't want it changed. stop hiding from the truth. quit lying to yourself. quit forcing everyone else to lie to you.