Another Holiday Season =/
I really think I hate christmas. I try not to, and whether I do or not, I don't let my kids know that. I remember being a kid and being totally enchanted with Thanksgiving and Christmas. Now, they're just like any other day. I'm tenatively planning to spend at least part of Christmas day at the cemetery, I want to have a little birthday party. I'm really not sure how I'm going to deal with it, to be honest. At times I feel really kind of ashamed and frustrated that I still am grieving. I know it's a 'process', but I really thought I'd be ok by now. I wish I knew how long it takes for it to go away. Most days, I'm fine, but then, there are moments, and I suddenly can't breathe. *sigh* another day at work, and I'm sitting here NOT working LOL. I guess I'd better get busy. Got a lot to do to get caught up, because I won't be in the office tomorrow...