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Wow, I can't believe it's been this long since I've written. Things have been so busy lately. With Pam away, I'm taking over a lot of PG's administrative stuff, and I'm feeling very capable right now. I miss her, but I thank her, because I'm feeling useful and it's a good boost for my self esteem. I've moved into a new house, which is exciting. I've been unpacking and cleaning my arse off, and I have not smoked even ONE cigarette in this new house :) I'm very proud of myself.
On a different note, the preliminary reports on Michael are saying alcohol poisoning, but we're not sure we buy it, because of other factors present when he was found, and the fact that the people who were with him the night before, and took him home, say he only had a few drinks. He had binges, but this wasn't one of 'em. He had so many other health problems that we all just can't wrap our minds around alcohol poisoning. I miss him still, and I probably always will. Every time I hear "Walking In Memphis", I hear him singing it, and I get chills, as if I know he's there. I also really think he is, because it always seems to play when I'm feeling the lowest and missing him the most. I've gotten back in touch with a few people that were mutual friends, and it's kind of painful for me, and for them too. We're kinda slowly working through it.
Life is looking up right now, emotionally, but kind of scary financially. The bail bonds have all but stopped right now, and while we have enough saved up to cover us for a couple months, it's still scary with the new house and the new bills, etc.
Valentines day went uncelebrated in my house LOL. I didn't mind, because things are good with us anyway......I dont' need that kind of stuff to feel appreciated, because he makes an effort to show me every day.
On a different note, the preliminary reports on Michael are saying alcohol poisoning, but we're not sure we buy it, because of other factors present when he was found, and the fact that the people who were with him the night before, and took him home, say he only had a few drinks. He had binges, but this wasn't one of 'em. He had so many other health problems that we all just can't wrap our minds around alcohol poisoning. I miss him still, and I probably always will. Every time I hear "Walking In Memphis", I hear him singing it, and I get chills, as if I know he's there. I also really think he is, because it always seems to play when I'm feeling the lowest and missing him the most. I've gotten back in touch with a few people that were mutual friends, and it's kind of painful for me, and for them too. We're kinda slowly working through it.
Life is looking up right now, emotionally, but kind of scary financially. The bail bonds have all but stopped right now, and while we have enough saved up to cover us for a couple months, it's still scary with the new house and the new bills, etc.
Valentines day went uncelebrated in my house LOL. I didn't mind, because things are good with us anyway......I dont' need that kind of stuff to feel appreciated, because he makes an effort to show me every day.