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Wow...I am actually feeling normal today. I heard one of Michael's favorite songs on the radio earlier, and had to pull off the road to cry, but I also laughed through it, because it was like he did that on purpose. I feel bad, because I was remiss in saying I have no friends, because I have wonderful friends online (Love you Pam and Dar), I just have no friends in real life. I'm not good at making friends, really, so it's mostly my own fault.
I still haven't been able to take Katy to the cemetery, and she was upset with me today because of it. I explained to her that it would be really hard for me, so she won't mind if her Dad takes her.
I've done some reading on grief, and it's really helping me. From all accounts I've read, my frustration with it is normal, I guess everyone gets tired of hurting. But Pam and Dar both told me the same things tonight...not to rush myself, and when I'm ready, healing will come naturally. I feel like I'm driving everyone crazy constantly talking about it, and I'm driving myself crazy doing it, I just can't seem to help it. It's like I NEED to talk about it, so I don't forget...even though that's silly, I know I'll never forget.
I still haven't been able to take Katy to the cemetery, and she was upset with me today because of it. I explained to her that it would be really hard for me, so she won't mind if her Dad takes her.
I've done some reading on grief, and it's really helping me. From all accounts I've read, my frustration with it is normal, I guess everyone gets tired of hurting. But Pam and Dar both told me the same things tonight...not to rush myself, and when I'm ready, healing will come naturally. I feel like I'm driving everyone crazy constantly talking about it, and I'm driving myself crazy doing it, I just can't seem to help it. It's like I NEED to talk about it, so I don't forget...even though that's silly, I know I'll never forget.