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so um ya...i went out with zach on thursday night to see CLoser.....lets just say were incredibly incompatible. first off, he didnt even get up to greet me and i asked him why and he was like "im tired" ya, bullshit. THEN in the middle of the movie he got a phone call. he doesnt turn it off. wat does he do? leave for like 10 minutes to go talk. hmmmm something wrong with this picture. i just thougt it was bad like manners or some shit like that. I dunno, that whole night was really gay. Friday was a disaster. I had genetics first thing in the morning then CLT then british lit and after school nerea was being all weird cuz she didnt want us to meet her boyfriend. Anyways, after school jen and i had to go do service hours by singing to old people and serving em food. ugh. we were supposed to be back at school by 3:30 but we didnt leave til then so we didnt get back to school til 4:30 and im like fuck cuz i had work that night at 6. So Lorie, this other girl that was there...didnt have a ride home. she had told me earlier that she lives really close to me so i offered to take her home. UGHHHHH. turns out she lives like half way to el cajon lol. but it was ok, i was still making good timing until after i had dropped her off. See, i didnt take her home on the freeway, i took the back roads so i wasnt really sure how far east i had gone. i took the 8 east to get home. and omg im such a dumbass lol. so i had to get off at the sdsu exit and turn around. ugh....didnt get home til 5:15. it sucked. So on Saturday nothing happened but around 3:00 Cory called me =) and he wanted me to go to his house. so i did before i had to go to work. i love his house. I went to work all depressed and sad but Will talked me through it. i was so excited because Busico came and saw me that night. so i went on break with her and we just hung out at starbucks. then yesterday my grandma came over for the day and gave me this really cute necklace =) then i went to work again and it was fun. got home around 1030 and gave MIken my Virginia picure because he lives in Virginia. i was wearing a Virginia shirt yesterday cuz i spilled shit on my other one and then i was INCRDIBLY bored with my moms and grandmas convo so i just went and took pictures. do u guys wanna see? he made it all pretty =). ill put it at the end of this entry and show u how good miken is at making pictures look better. so are u guys excited for christmas? im not i dont know why. yesterday when i was really bored i was reading the O magazine and came across the relationship section. UGH i wish i had a boyfriend, its been 2 and a half fricken years. wats wrong with me? i really wanna know wats so bad about me. no one wants anything real. WIll told me that ther wasnt anything wrong with me. he was like "i think its my age group too cuz all everyone does is drink and smoke and have sex. thers nothing wrong with u, its them. theres something else i dont understand...all the bitchy girls and asshole guys have someone while nice people like you and me get left on the side of the road. It feels like people want to be treated badly. i dunno." so blehhhhhh. god wat about prommmmmmmm =(
P.S. Jose......i hope you feel better soon!