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i feel so at ease. but at the same time, not...
but i feel like i have finally come to terms with just being ok. and i donno, maybe i feel a whole lot better because i finally know what i am doing with the lights for vagina monologues. which is awesome.
and things, i think, are so much better with ashley. i think partly because i have just tried to be, and not force anything or whatever.
this all sounds so zen, and really, i guess i feel that way. i am still pissed off about stuff and annoyed, but i don't let it get to me.
i was like this before, but getting the tattoo made me see something about myself. i have always felt that i dont really take initiative, that i dont do ANYTHING. which is true to some extent and it was getting me really discouraged and down. but then i did something! something that i have been putting off and wanting to do for a ridiculously long time. so now i know that i CAN. i can take action, do something. that was cheesy, but thats it exactly.
whooh.
ugh, but im pretty sure megan hates me. i dont know why, i mean i didnt see any of them at all this week, even though i meant to. and last night i was trying to talk to her and she couldnt hear me. and i dont want to seem like i am just friends with megan, because i want to be friends with all of them.
but, im good. i cant let that get me.
oh, im so excited for spring break! road trippin with fi! oh yeah oh yeah...
but i feel like i have finally come to terms with just being ok. and i donno, maybe i feel a whole lot better because i finally know what i am doing with the lights for vagina monologues. which is awesome.
and things, i think, are so much better with ashley. i think partly because i have just tried to be, and not force anything or whatever.
this all sounds so zen, and really, i guess i feel that way. i am still pissed off about stuff and annoyed, but i don't let it get to me.
i was like this before, but getting the tattoo made me see something about myself. i have always felt that i dont really take initiative, that i dont do ANYTHING. which is true to some extent and it was getting me really discouraged and down. but then i did something! something that i have been putting off and wanting to do for a ridiculously long time. so now i know that i CAN. i can take action, do something. that was cheesy, but thats it exactly.
whooh.
ugh, but im pretty sure megan hates me. i dont know why, i mean i didnt see any of them at all this week, even though i meant to. and last night i was trying to talk to her and she couldnt hear me. and i dont want to seem like i am just friends with megan, because i want to be friends with all of them.
but, im good. i cant let that get me.
oh, im so excited for spring break! road trippin with fi! oh yeah oh yeah...