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we were talking about discipline in fiction writers and publishing today. I dont have any. so i decided to get some, and i came home and cleaned out my desk and cleaned my drawers and cleaned everything. and i am putting shit together better. i am taking it a day at a time, but i think discipline is going to be the new me. or something.
now i am going through and cleaning up my harddrive, and organizing all of my work.
seriously i think i might be a whole new person next semester.
i think rose has a lot to do with that. in a really weird way. not like she is saying clean yourself up or anything like that, but the ways in which she is clean i am really dirty, and i thought it wouldnt work for me to be clean in those ways, but now i am seeing how discipline works and it is nice. it is really weird how just being around her makes me a better person. normally people i am fucking make me worse, and crazy, and stupid, and just fuck everything up, but she doesn't do anything like that. i dont know...i think no matter how it works it is going to be a good thing for me.
now i am going through and cleaning up my harddrive, and organizing all of my work.
seriously i think i might be a whole new person next semester.
i think rose has a lot to do with that. in a really weird way. not like she is saying clean yourself up or anything like that, but the ways in which she is clean i am really dirty, and i thought it wouldnt work for me to be clean in those ways, but now i am seeing how discipline works and it is nice. it is really weird how just being around her makes me a better person. normally people i am fucking make me worse, and crazy, and stupid, and just fuck everything up, but she doesn't do anything like that. i dont know...i think no matter how it works it is going to be a good thing for me.