first entry after a while
so this is my first entry after a while, and everyone is starting with the livejournals again, so the saga continues (insert star wars music here)
hmm... so im getting ready for the concert tonight... not fun... hopefully im hanign out with jess tonight because i need to catch up
on the subject of friends...
Kymberly - i love you, and i dont want to lose you. I left you a comment about how much i care about you, and i do. To be honest, i've been crying alot lately, and not because of joe, but because i feel like im losing my best friends. and im still with you, but i feel like im losing you. i wish that it wont have to come to "its joe or kym/jess/chelsea/randi".... because the decision would be you guys, and it would hurt to let go of joe at the same time though. Im sorry that i havent told you everything, and in return, i would liek to think that maybe you wanted to tell me everything (not about joe), instead of me finding out through a livejournal, but IM HERE FOR YOU. i might not always ask "TELL ME ABOUT YOUR LIFE AND IF YOU DONT I WILL RAPE YOU!!!!!", but believe me, i want to know... i want to be involved, it makes me feel important and loved. idk, sometimes i wonder why my freshman year i left all my friends, but i realized it was because it was so hard to stay, i feel liek im being isolated, and the worst part is that im not doing it anymore, im always trying to be around you and invite you places, but i just feel like your not as interested anymore. And i guess back then i gave up on trying, and to be honest, i feel liek giving up because i try so hard every day to keep you and jess.
Jess - I feel like you don't really care about me. I knwo you do, thats why you say the whole thing about joe, and i dont even care about that anymore, i expect it and it doesnt bother me. And i respect that you dont trust anyone, so im not expecting to hear your every thought and complaint, but i feel liek all i'll ever be is just " a sweet heart" or "this mentally insane girl i once knew". You know i want to be there for you. You say that youd never leave kym, but you cant leave me either, and its not because i need you to help me, but because i like being around you and i want you to stay. im not your friend because i need your advice, im your friend because i like who you are. please remember that. and again, i would pick you guys anyday.
Chelsea - i realized the other day that by my 18th birhtday, we would havebeen best friends for 10 YEARS!!! oh baby!! wow we are so old, man! i am so glad that we are friends again, because you always make me happy, i guess you dont realize it sometimes, but you give me this comfort that no one else quite gives me. bffl's!!! (and i'll still be your friend after death too) Best Friends For Life And After Death..... BFFLAAD's!!!!
hmm... so im getting ready for the concert tonight... not fun... hopefully im hanign out with jess tonight because i need to catch up
on the subject of friends...
Kymberly - i love you, and i dont want to lose you. I left you a comment about how much i care about you, and i do. To be honest, i've been crying alot lately, and not because of joe, but because i feel like im losing my best friends. and im still with you, but i feel like im losing you. i wish that it wont have to come to "its joe or kym/jess/chelsea/randi".... because the decision would be you guys, and it would hurt to let go of joe at the same time though. Im sorry that i havent told you everything, and in return, i would liek to think that maybe you wanted to tell me everything (not about joe), instead of me finding out through a livejournal, but IM HERE FOR YOU. i might not always ask "TELL ME ABOUT YOUR LIFE AND IF YOU DONT I WILL RAPE YOU!!!!!", but believe me, i want to know... i want to be involved, it makes me feel important and loved. idk, sometimes i wonder why my freshman year i left all my friends, but i realized it was because it was so hard to stay, i feel liek im being isolated, and the worst part is that im not doing it anymore, im always trying to be around you and invite you places, but i just feel like your not as interested anymore. And i guess back then i gave up on trying, and to be honest, i feel liek giving up because i try so hard every day to keep you and jess.
Jess - I feel like you don't really care about me. I knwo you do, thats why you say the whole thing about joe, and i dont even care about that anymore, i expect it and it doesnt bother me. And i respect that you dont trust anyone, so im not expecting to hear your every thought and complaint, but i feel liek all i'll ever be is just " a sweet heart" or "this mentally insane girl i once knew". You know i want to be there for you. You say that youd never leave kym, but you cant leave me either, and its not because i need you to help me, but because i like being around you and i want you to stay. im not your friend because i need your advice, im your friend because i like who you are. please remember that. and again, i would pick you guys anyday.
Chelsea - i realized the other day that by my 18th birhtday, we would havebeen best friends for 10 YEARS!!! oh baby!! wow we are so old, man! i am so glad that we are friends again, because you always make me happy, i guess you dont realize it sometimes, but you give me this comfort that no one else quite gives me. bffl's!!! (and i'll still be your friend after death too) Best Friends For Life And After Death..... BFFLAAD's!!!!