let go.
How is it that at age 13 I felt like being able to walk from The Wreck to the movie theater was the most awesome thing in the world? And at age 16 Orland seemed like some foreign country? But now, just 4 years later I can go on a cross-country trip and feel hardly phased at all? Fuck,I hate growing up. I miss being so ignorant, it made life so much more adventurous and exciting.
I've been in such a nostalgic mood this whole week, and I can't quite shake it off. I think maybe it's the weather changing, I always get weird around this time of year.
I've been longing for the past so hard.
I just want to be fucking 16, again, forever.
Is that so much to ask for?
I mean we've invented phones, computers, even gone into space,
and no one has the slightest idea how to alter space-time fabric yet?
I mean come on guys, this shits important for my emotional well being.
This leaves me to wonder though,
was being 16 really as great as I think it was?
Or have I just forgotten the bad and only remembered the good?
Have I just idolized it into being something that it really wasn't at all?
And most of all, will I be saying the same thing about being 20, 5 years from now?
I always feel like the present period of my life is less significant than the previous.
Which leads me to two conclusions, either...
A) Life is just a long downward spiral, you'll never be quite as great as you were the day before, and you'll certainly never be a teenager again, ever.
or
B) People just naturally only remember what they want to remember. Making the present dark and gloomy filled with all the gunk of everyday life, but after a few years it gets filtered into being this perfect little delusion that we can't quite get enough of.
I'm leaning towards B or at least hoping it's B anyway.
Either way, I need to cut this shit out.
Holding onto the past never fixes anything.
I've been in such a nostalgic mood this whole week, and I can't quite shake it off. I think maybe it's the weather changing, I always get weird around this time of year.
I've been longing for the past so hard.
I just want to be fucking 16, again, forever.
Is that so much to ask for?
I mean we've invented phones, computers, even gone into space,
and no one has the slightest idea how to alter space-time fabric yet?
I mean come on guys, this shits important for my emotional well being.
This leaves me to wonder though,
was being 16 really as great as I think it was?
Or have I just forgotten the bad and only remembered the good?
Have I just idolized it into being something that it really wasn't at all?
And most of all, will I be saying the same thing about being 20, 5 years from now?
I always feel like the present period of my life is less significant than the previous.
Which leads me to two conclusions, either...
A) Life is just a long downward spiral, you'll never be quite as great as you were the day before, and you'll certainly never be a teenager again, ever.
or
B) People just naturally only remember what they want to remember. Making the present dark and gloomy filled with all the gunk of everyday life, but after a few years it gets filtered into being this perfect little delusion that we can't quite get enough of.
I'm leaning towards B or at least hoping it's B anyway.
Either way, I need to cut this shit out.
Holding onto the past never fixes anything.