fresno, me, washington.
so, i went to francesca's apartment tonight to hang out with her, lindsey, and scott. we watched saved! and the girl next door. then i hooked up my laptop and busted out the tight beatz. we played "truth or dare" but with more "truth"s. lots of sex questions. "the backwards hug" was an answer of mine. as was "sean byrne in the classroom."
then something horrible came up that's going to tear my life to pieces: francesca suggested that, instead of moving to washington, i simply take the promotion at work and move into an apartment with her in fresno. it has more positives than negatives, and it's really fucking ripping me apart.
in washington, it will just be chris and i; in fresno, i'll still be with annie, lindsey, francesca (obviously), daniel, and all of my other friends.
in washington, i'll still be a gsr; here i'll be promoted to shift leader, giving me more hours and higher pay.
in washington, i won't have a safety net; in fresno, i'll only be half and hour from my parents.
in washington, it costs hundreds of dollars to go home on holidays; in fresno, it costs ~$10 to go home on holidays.
and my grandma frech's health is fading. i don't want to be in washington when she passes. i want to be here to be with her and my family. if i stay here, i won't have to worry about finding a new car right now; i can run the pontiac into the ground.
the only real downside to staying is the weather, which will be over in a month or two, and the fact that i'd still be so far away from chris. the positives seriously outweigh the negatives. i can always move away later. i don't think i'm ready to go so far away. chris doesn't have this problem since we'd be staying at his parents' house. he'd still be at home. and he doesn't have a job yet. that really pisses me off.
i'll talk to my parents (well, at least my mom) tomorrow and update them/her. moving to fresno would be far enough that i can have a sense of independence but still a comfortable buffer zone. tara lives closer than i would, and i hardly ever see her.
francesca and i would live somewhere around fresno state, so it's a prime location. denny's is right there. annie is like five minutes away. daniel is five minutes away. the tower district is just ten minutes down 41. the mall is right down the street.
the only big problem would be work. i don't know whether i would stay at the sanger store or transfer to a store in fresno. the first & gettysburg store would be ideal, but it's a huge store, and the employees seems really unpleasant. plus the customers would scare me. and i think they've been robbed a few times. the cedar & shepard store is only 15 minutes north, but it's a mess of a store, and i'd have to deal with snobby clovis people who are too cheap to pay for late fees. i'll talk to my store manager and see which store she would recommend.
fuck. the hardest thing of all is telling chris.
and some girl from sanger asked to be my friend. her display name is something like "w/e 2mro brngs ill b ther w/ open rms" but with sTicKY cAPs.
and my pAper chAse cd shipped today!
then something horrible came up that's going to tear my life to pieces: francesca suggested that, instead of moving to washington, i simply take the promotion at work and move into an apartment with her in fresno. it has more positives than negatives, and it's really fucking ripping me apart.
in washington, it will just be chris and i; in fresno, i'll still be with annie, lindsey, francesca (obviously), daniel, and all of my other friends.
in washington, i'll still be a gsr; here i'll be promoted to shift leader, giving me more hours and higher pay.
in washington, i won't have a safety net; in fresno, i'll only be half and hour from my parents.
in washington, it costs hundreds of dollars to go home on holidays; in fresno, it costs ~$10 to go home on holidays.
and my grandma frech's health is fading. i don't want to be in washington when she passes. i want to be here to be with her and my family. if i stay here, i won't have to worry about finding a new car right now; i can run the pontiac into the ground.
the only real downside to staying is the weather, which will be over in a month or two, and the fact that i'd still be so far away from chris. the positives seriously outweigh the negatives. i can always move away later. i don't think i'm ready to go so far away. chris doesn't have this problem since we'd be staying at his parents' house. he'd still be at home. and he doesn't have a job yet. that really pisses me off.
i'll talk to my parents (well, at least my mom) tomorrow and update them/her. moving to fresno would be far enough that i can have a sense of independence but still a comfortable buffer zone. tara lives closer than i would, and i hardly ever see her.
francesca and i would live somewhere around fresno state, so it's a prime location. denny's is right there. annie is like five minutes away. daniel is five minutes away. the tower district is just ten minutes down 41. the mall is right down the street.
the only big problem would be work. i don't know whether i would stay at the sanger store or transfer to a store in fresno. the first & gettysburg store would be ideal, but it's a huge store, and the employees seems really unpleasant. plus the customers would scare me. and i think they've been robbed a few times. the cedar & shepard store is only 15 minutes north, but it's a mess of a store, and i'd have to deal with snobby clovis people who are too cheap to pay for late fees. i'll talk to my store manager and see which store she would recommend.
fuck. the hardest thing of all is telling chris.
and some girl from sanger asked to be my friend. her display name is something like "w/e 2mro brngs ill b ther w/ open rms" but with sTicKY cAPs.
and my pAper chAse cd shipped today!