I am so much better.

[imsopretty]

How did I let myself get so sad my entire life?

How am I not sad anymore?

What happened?

My cat Noel is sitting on my lower back just chillin.

I sent my poetry into a publishing company it was rejected but thats okay because it made me work harder.

I have two jobs. At urban I love urban outfitters. I love my managers all 8 of them.
I raped heroin pride at the talent show.

Im actually doing surprisingly well juxtaposed to these other entries. the only difference is I do not punch out as many poems as i used to.

Yet. I am so good. I really am. My life is amazing. Truly amazing.

Im making music with the moonchild she is fantastic.
I have my girlfriends.
I have everything.
And thats okay because I am learning. Gosh I have learned so much
and by no means and i completely sane- truly i am just happy thats the only difference.......
(

Things, life, people, relationships, cats(like the one thats asleep on my back) are meant to be.
if i have learned anything it is that.

such as weed. and me going insane.
everything is meant to be.
I cannot believe i used to be that openly miserable.
even privately.