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within the span of 17 days i met and fell in love with the most genuine man ive ever met in my life. he was an international student from turkey with lite skin, dark features, an amazing body, and a perfect soul. he had been here since july but i didnt get to meet until the first day of the new year. it was a great way to start my new year but we both knew we had a limited amount of time together. he took me to long beach, newport beach, laguna beach, and santa monica to meet his turkish friends in two days. then we spent three days in san diego with my neighbors and some of our other friends. school started and i only went to one class that week because early in the week i spent every moment with him and on that thursday we went to vegas with a bunch of friends. we stayed in a suite and went to clubs and gambled and made lots of love. when we got home he only had three days left until he had to leave. we spent a lot of time just laying in bed in the morning and talking and deciding what was going to happen in the future. for his last night the group that went to vegas and i took him out to dinner for sushi and sake. lots of sake. in the morning we drove him at 545, he almost missed his flight and i would have been so happy. once we left him at the airport i went back to his apartment that i had to clean and just laid in his bed crying until he called me from salt lake city. i managed to make it to classes after that but didnt calm down until he called me from turkey at 2 in the morning. he was officially an american continent, an ocean, another continent, and a meditteranean sea away from me. i knew it would be difficult but i did not expect it to be this difficult. i cant explain the way he made me feel and the emptiness that has now taken over me. i hope i will recover from this.