THE WEEK I FOUND WHY I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!
Isn't it funny how one person can change everything in your life. Ok let me explain this week my moms friend was in from Illinois and she brought her daughter whos name is Lindsy. Well at first i was like she lives in Illinois im not even going to try to like her. But soon enough I found out that wasn't what my true feelings were. The first day I met her was last saturday and we just hung out and found out what each other likes and what their is to do in the two different states. Then i decided to go back on sunday and the same thing happened and monday and Tuesday. Then i didn't get to see her wendsday and Thursday but friday i went back. I deciced to ask her if she had any feelings for me and to my suprise she said yes. I told her how i felt about her which should be pretty obvious right now to the people that are reading this. We realized we both liked each other a lot. She had to go back to Illinois on sunday morining at three. So i went and spent the night over their and watched them leave. What i am trying to say by this is i didn't even know her very long and she made such in impact on my life and what i think about. So today at work i was doing good trying not to think about her because every time i did i would break down and burst into tears. As i was driving to work i was crying. So i was doing really good and then i went on break as i sat and talked to nancy she asked me what was wrong so i explained the situation as best i could trying to hold back the tears. Then i finally just snapped and started crying and crying. I had to go back to work and as i was working i still cried. Poncho was their to offer some comfort and i thank him. So i walked out into the dining room and rachel was on break seeing how it was sunday and wasn't busy at all i sat down with her and talked to her and she told me that she feels bad. But she still comforted me god i love her so much. She is the kindest sweetest smartest girl in the world she would do anything for anybody and i love her. So we sat their and talked and she understood exactly what i was going through and i could talk to her about it and im so happy she made me feel so much better. And this whole time she is in pain my god GREATEST GIRL EVER. Rachel you deserve so much better than you have and i hope you realize that. But yeah so i made it home from work and took a nap when i woke up i told my mom i needed to talk to her and we went in my room and talked for a few minutesand she understood what i was going through too. I love my mom so much she has done so much for me and keeps doing for me and all i do is bitch about things when i don't get my way. But hopefully i can talk to her some more tonight. Well this is how my week went and now its time to forget and hope and pray that i don't lose contact with Lindsy. Well thanx for sitting through this whole thing and Katie my feelings for you haven't changed and they never will. As for rachel THANK YOU SO MUCH. AND PONCHO I THANK YOU. AND MY MOM TOO. I love all of you and if it wasn't for you i wouldn't be where i am you guys are behind me for whatever i do and im so happy to have you as friends.