The down side of being a nice guy...
We finish last. Every time. Think about it, how many guys do you know who are complete jack-offs. Do these dudes ever suffer for anything? Nope. Not one bit. And the reason they don't suffer is because they don't give a fuck about anything, not even themselves. But then there is the nice guy. The type of person who would give a friend the last dollar he had. The type of person who is always there, and never asks for anything in return. And what happens to these guys every time? Yep, you guessed it, fucked in the ass.
Now you may be reading this and say to yourself, gee, sounds kind of bitter. Well, you're right. I am bitter. Sick and tired is more like it. I'm sick of going out of my way for certain people, and not getting so much as a thank you. I'm sick of constantly getting taken advantage of. And most importantly, I'm tired of getting my heart ripped out of my chest everytime I fall in love. There comes a point in time where a person can only take so much crap, and I'm coming really fucking close to being at that point. The worst part about being a nice guy, is that it's not exactly something that we can just turn off. I can't just not care. I can't turn around and look the other way, and I can't just act like nothing is wrong, because in fact, there is something very wrong, and it's not something that I can fix.
I can't fix it because I'm not sure what the problem is. I know for a fact that it's nothing that I did wrong, even though that's what it feels like a lot of the time. It's very hard though to sit on the sidelines though, and watch someone that you love go through an inner struggle and not seek help from anyone, not even their own family. Why is it that some people choose to bottle every thing up inside them? I may never figure that one out.
Right now there are three words to sum up my feelings at this point: Irritated, Aggravated, Agitated. There is only one thing in this world that I want to do right now, and I can't do it. And that my friends, makes for a very empty, alone, feel sorry for myself kind of feeling. It sucks kids, but this is the downside of not being an asshole.
that will be all
By the way, certain comments above were not in reference to anyone in particular, just in case you were wondering if i was talking about you....
Now you may be reading this and say to yourself, gee, sounds kind of bitter. Well, you're right. I am bitter. Sick and tired is more like it. I'm sick of going out of my way for certain people, and not getting so much as a thank you. I'm sick of constantly getting taken advantage of. And most importantly, I'm tired of getting my heart ripped out of my chest everytime I fall in love. There comes a point in time where a person can only take so much crap, and I'm coming really fucking close to being at that point. The worst part about being a nice guy, is that it's not exactly something that we can just turn off. I can't just not care. I can't turn around and look the other way, and I can't just act like nothing is wrong, because in fact, there is something very wrong, and it's not something that I can fix.
I can't fix it because I'm not sure what the problem is. I know for a fact that it's nothing that I did wrong, even though that's what it feels like a lot of the time. It's very hard though to sit on the sidelines though, and watch someone that you love go through an inner struggle and not seek help from anyone, not even their own family. Why is it that some people choose to bottle every thing up inside them? I may never figure that one out.
Right now there are three words to sum up my feelings at this point: Irritated, Aggravated, Agitated. There is only one thing in this world that I want to do right now, and I can't do it. And that my friends, makes for a very empty, alone, feel sorry for myself kind of feeling. It sucks kids, but this is the downside of not being an asshole.
that will be all
By the way, certain comments above were not in reference to anyone in particular, just in case you were wondering if i was talking about you....