psssss mullets are for lesbians.

[imskarific]

so it finally happened.after all this pretentious bullcrap,the smiling,the dancing,the advice,the niceness,the fakeness.i broke.i broke the fuck down and its all over. when i try this "reflect" bullshit, i dont know why i tried to be this person for so long,or who i was trying to impress with it.its kinda sad,because ive fooled so many people into thinking im a nice,caring person.but im not.im a selfish,concieted bitch who does everything possible to get my way. i dont care who i hurt or what i have to do to assure what i want is mine,either. anyways....yesterday in school,i couldnt take it anymore.everyone always fucking huging me,telling me they love me,am i at a school or a fuckin aaa support meeting? so ive had so much more than enough....and i walk in the lunchroom,actually for once sucessfully alone....and i sit,in the corner and wait for the one person at school i actually trust,while everyone else tries to talk to me.fucking horrid.finally,deana walks in,and i burst into tears,and couldnt help it....i try to explain to her,but like,a bunch of ppl are asking me whats wrong and crap.i wish theyde all die. so finally me and deana get away from the crowd and i tell her everything wrong with me....and i guess everythings ok again.....but in different terms.....and now that i dont have to be nice.....i can give in to my addictions and finally be me.

im finally happy.