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Why am I such a freaking mess?!?!?!?!? I just don't know what is up with me and I just want to scream. ((Sits in corner and crys and hits head against the wall.)) I go back to Utah tomorrow and I am so scared. I'm scared they might tell me that I can't go home yet, that October 13th isn't going to work after all. That I'm a screw up, that I need more help. It is all I can do right now not to either curl up in a ball and try to pretend the world doesn't exist or go into the bathroom and cut or purge. UUUGGGHHH. I just wish there were magic words to make this all better. I need help, suggestions, just anything, thought I know most of you are asleep right now and won't be on this until after I am gone. Ugh, life is annoying.
-Mel
-Mel