I'm scared.
so...
Me and Hana and Jamie are going to be hangin out today, we did yesturday too. That makes me so incredibly happy. I missed them. Hana more so, but i still missed Jamie too. They are fun people. Today i am meeting Daniel. FEAR. Thats the only feeling inside me. Fear. And i sincerly do not want to feel like that. no i do not. Well, not only fear as in "i'm afraid" fear, but even thought this may sound completly shallow and mean...i'm afraid hes going to be ugly. There i said it. Even though we have a great connection and i love to talk to him i'm afraid that if we meet its not gunna be the same. Because thats the kind of person i am. I will make it different if he isn't what i expected him to be...And i feel so bad for that. And what makes me feel worse is that he would never do that to me or to anyone. He doesnt care what i look like, not at all. Because he isn't shallow or concieded. Not even a tiny bit. But i am. I totally am. I always take looks first. But i mean if the guys and ass but hes hott im not gunna like him. Personaliity comes into play as well. But if there was a guy with a fantastic personality but he wasn't at all good looking...im not so sure. So theres me delema and i am so scared that i am gunna make an ass out of myself today.
Wish me luck...
Me and Hana and Jamie are going to be hangin out today, we did yesturday too. That makes me so incredibly happy. I missed them. Hana more so, but i still missed Jamie too. They are fun people. Today i am meeting Daniel. FEAR. Thats the only feeling inside me. Fear. And i sincerly do not want to feel like that. no i do not. Well, not only fear as in "i'm afraid" fear, but even thought this may sound completly shallow and mean...i'm afraid hes going to be ugly. There i said it. Even though we have a great connection and i love to talk to him i'm afraid that if we meet its not gunna be the same. Because thats the kind of person i am. I will make it different if he isn't what i expected him to be...And i feel so bad for that. And what makes me feel worse is that he would never do that to me or to anyone. He doesnt care what i look like, not at all. Because he isn't shallow or concieded. Not even a tiny bit. But i am. I totally am. I always take looks first. But i mean if the guys and ass but hes hott im not gunna like him. Personaliity comes into play as well. But if there was a guy with a fantastic personality but he wasn't at all good looking...im not so sure. So theres me delema and i am so scared that i am gunna make an ass out of myself today.
Wish me luck...