I want to help
I wish there is something I could do. It still is like all my friends are hurting and filled with this pain inside and there is nothing in my power that I can do to take any of their pain away. Im trying so hard, all I can do is tell them that I'm here for them and that if they ever just want to talk that I'll listen and do my best to be a good friend. Sometimes I think that they dont know that though. And that they dont consider me to be one of their friends, but instead I'm someone who just hangs out with them, and is just there. I know that lately I havent been the best person. And I'm doing the best I can to find a balance between theatre, school and my non-theatre friends. I really want to be an involved memeber and hopefully be an officer when I'm a junior and senior. I know I have to keep my grades up, and i have to stay invloved. But I also know that to keep myself sane I have to hang out and keep friends besides the theatre people. I havent been doing a good job of that lately.Its so hard to keep everything in order and the way that I want it to be. I feel so bad that I havent been there. Like i was too busy with my own life and my own stuff that i may have missed out on some times in which my best friends needed me. i have to figure out my balance.