A grain of sand
I've heard people compare themselves to an island before, when they are feeling lonely. I am not an island, I am not unique or beautiful. I am just a grain of sand. One among millions, with no aspiration to become an island.
It seems like the few friends I had are gone, either by my mistakes, me pushing them away, or them not caring about me as much as I had thought they did. I'm selfish, I know, but I still wish I had someone. Anyone.
I have also decided I won't be happy until I move far away from here. I am going to end up having a shitty job, in which I will end up running into one of my "friends" or someone I knew from highschool, then I will feel ashamed. I don't want that. I hate the way I'm living my life but how can one change what they believe?
It seems like the few friends I had are gone, either by my mistakes, me pushing them away, or them not caring about me as much as I had thought they did. I'm selfish, I know, but I still wish I had someone. Anyone.
I have also decided I won't be happy until I move far away from here. I am going to end up having a shitty job, in which I will end up running into one of my "friends" or someone I knew from highschool, then I will feel ashamed. I don't want that. I hate the way I'm living my life but how can one change what they believe?