being home sick gives me time to reflect
in this confusing time, i need 2 keep reminding myself that though it seems like the world has turned its back on me, it really hasnt. there r so many people who have been showing me amazing unconditional love lately, but often im too wrapped up in being depressed 2 even realize it. but kyle helped me today in seeing things differently. he said that bad times r short and harsh but they will pass, but only if i dont spend forever dwelling on them. every day is a new day, and even though my life has taken several unexpected turns, ive just gotta take on whatever life throws at me because ppl come out of the woodwork who r truly awesome, perhaps even better than the ppl i associated w/ before. and i do need 2 stop worrying about those ppl because r they here in my time of need? its intriguing how ppl can ignore u when u need them the most. whatever, i'll never stop loving them, but i cant waste my time being hurt while watching them self-destruct. if they decide 2 change and need my help, i hope they know they can call me b/c i will help them. friends forever actually means something to me. but back 2 my point, some ppl r pretty fucking wonderful. im not gonna name drop, but u know who u r, and i just wanted 2 say thank you 4 taking out a few moments 2 think of me :)