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[impure_tale]

I have reacted to the last week with relative patience, I feel. I suppose I can understand the turmoil everyone seems to be experiencing over the port, but I cannot say I completely empathize.

Unless you were unfortunate enough to be on the Barge when it was exploded? You did not die during the last port. You were not killed during the last port. No

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[expectremorse]

So what, you expect that to be sit right with people? I know that story. Orpheus still lost something.

I don't know what the little shit intended, I don't care, but people still could have abandoned others. Who's to say they didn't want to go on in the afterlife anyway?

Who's to say that it wouldn't be better.

[impure_tale]

He lost something because he gave in to temptation and looked back. He did not lose something because he went to the Underworld. He still lived.

You sound as though you might have looked back while you were there, as well.

[expectremorse]

[Not him.]

I didn't.

[Never him.]

...I fucking didn't!

...I have nothing left to lose.

[impure_tale]

I'm sorry. Whatever your pain.

[expectremorse]

[nasty, angry.] No you're not.

[pause, then, blank.] You don't get it. You don't get it and you don't know.

[impure_tale]

What it's like to see someone I loved, who had died?

[expectremorse]

[frozen.]

What it is like to know, that change happens.

Change happens. I get that. I was wrong. I get that too.

Showing somebody who'd just died to someone who's trying to change and trying not to acknowledge-

That's like setting a beer down in front of an alcoholic.

Private

[impure_tale]

There is something you are not saying.

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[expectremorse]

Say Rex changes.

[just by way of example]

Say he's willing to do all of this shit. It's hard enough to learn how to step out and not take shit from anybody normally but you make bad choices.

How do you go on from those bad choices. How can he walk around the barge again without having somebody try to fucking kill him?

[Such progress. Such fucking progress.]

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[impure_tale]

That's very simple. By accepting what has occurred and defending himself against undue attacks.

I am a graduate myself. Do you think there is anyone that forgot anything I had done?

Re: Private

[expectremorse]

Try systematically pushing everyone away from you who ever mattered to you! Try losing, one after another, your friends, your family, and your loved ones all for the sake of some...bullshit philosophy!

I did wrong! There. You're a warden. I'll tell George that, when he's feeling better. But I have nothing else!

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[impure_tale]

I don't mean to make light of what you've said, cherub, but that is the life I lived, exactly.

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[expectremorse]

So How...did you come back? How did you cope?

There has to be an answer beyond just...accepting it! Something I can do!

Private

[impure_tale]

You cannot accept what you have done?

Re: Private

[expectremorse]

Do you know what I've done?

Private

[impure_tale]

It does not matter. You are here to see to the same task as any Inmate.