[ Frustrated! ]
I've been seriously moody this last week and its getting me down =( Yesterday I was happy, and today I'm just so frustrated and pissed at the world. Woody said it was PMT - haha, a typical male response, and I'm hoping its just that. I'm taking it out on the people I love most, which means that sam's unfortunately getting it pretty bad. I have no idea why he puts up with me =(
My parents are annoying the crap out of me. In some ways I would just love to find a full time job, save enough money, and leave. I shouldn't complain - compared to a lot of people I have it made. Nice house, good school, nice friends.. the whole package. But it's just so blah. I'm not so close to people anymore and I'm not sure why. I'm starting to feel like the past 5 years I've spent working towards now has been a waste of time. I also feel fake for not confronting my parents, but I just can't. The way I've been raised has been too agree and not argue back. Which I never do. AAAHHH!! I'm just so angry all the time right now, its really scary.
I feel bad for being so self-absorbed when Sam has a lot more stuff to deal with than me, his auntie has just had to bury her two children and he's been with his family a lot, I'm such a bitch, but I can't help it, I resent him not being able to see me. Someone help? I don't know what to do. Tomorrow I could be totally fine, I just don't know!!
Edit : I did something productive today, and made an LJ layout for the first time ever. My HTML is so rusty..
My parents are annoying the crap out of me. In some ways I would just love to find a full time job, save enough money, and leave. I shouldn't complain - compared to a lot of people I have it made. Nice house, good school, nice friends.. the whole package. But it's just so blah. I'm not so close to people anymore and I'm not sure why. I'm starting to feel like the past 5 years I've spent working towards now has been a waste of time. I also feel fake for not confronting my parents, but I just can't. The way I've been raised has been too agree and not argue back. Which I never do. AAAHHH!! I'm just so angry all the time right now, its really scary.
I feel bad for being so self-absorbed when Sam has a lot more stuff to deal with than me, his auntie has just had to bury her two children and he's been with his family a lot, I'm such a bitch, but I can't help it, I resent him not being able to see me. Someone help? I don't know what to do. Tomorrow I could be totally fine, I just don't know!!
Edit : I did something productive today, and made an LJ layout for the first time ever. My HTML is so rusty..