Shouldn't I leave the itnernets forevers?
And tend to my garden as a more lucrative hobby?
It's insanely tiresome to have to put up with the RP scene on Livejournal. The passive aggressiveness, the faux politeness of those who merely tolerate you if your personalities clash or somewhat?
I don't know if it's an elitist standard or that I simply cannot socialize at a level deemed suitable by the mass majority of the LJ community. I don't type or RP horribly, and I may not play the end all be all best of any of my characters but what gets me is that somehow I'm wrong because I do things differently.
I feel like I'm the scum of my fandom, mostly because of how I am treated. That is, nobody in the fandom really talks to me OR rps with me. It's frustrating. It's not like I have an ego, and yeah, I say some idiotic shit sometimes but it's not for lack of trying to please.
And I'm sick of feeling like I have to please someone. I really am. I think that's why people leave Livejournal because there's so much pressure behind it. It's probably one of the many reasons my friend doesn't even go near it, and right now? I don't blame her.
I dunno. Maybe they're justified in what these people do. Cutting ties with me or holding back the truth, making me feel insecure enough to vent about it in Livejournal like an Emo 13 year old...
I hate it when people beat around the bush. I really do. But I'm amenable. Compassionate even. Telling me the truth isn't going to kill me. It might make me upset and angry and I might even brood for a while. But I'll get over it.
I'd rather you be honest than spare my feelings.
After all, the only way to improve your perspective is to be proven wrong. That's how critique works in all areas. Art, science, life.
It's insanely tiresome to have to put up with the RP scene on Livejournal. The passive aggressiveness, the faux politeness of those who merely tolerate you if your personalities clash or somewhat?
I don't know if it's an elitist standard or that I simply cannot socialize at a level deemed suitable by the mass majority of the LJ community. I don't type or RP horribly, and I may not play the end all be all best of any of my characters but what gets me is that somehow I'm wrong because I do things differently.
I feel like I'm the scum of my fandom, mostly because of how I am treated. That is, nobody in the fandom really talks to me OR rps with me. It's frustrating. It's not like I have an ego, and yeah, I say some idiotic shit sometimes but it's not for lack of trying to please.
And I'm sick of feeling like I have to please someone. I really am. I think that's why people leave Livejournal because there's so much pressure behind it. It's probably one of the many reasons my friend doesn't even go near it, and right now? I don't blame her.
I dunno. Maybe they're justified in what these people do. Cutting ties with me or holding back the truth, making me feel insecure enough to vent about it in Livejournal like an Emo 13 year old...
I hate it when people beat around the bush. I really do. But I'm amenable. Compassionate even. Telling me the truth isn't going to kill me. It might make me upset and angry and I might even brood for a while. But I'll get over it.
I'd rather you be honest than spare my feelings.
After all, the only way to improve your perspective is to be proven wrong. That's how critique works in all areas. Art, science, life.