Strange dreams, but even more nightmares...
I keep getting asked weird questions lately. I suppose it's nobody's fault. They just sound weird to me. They don't sit well with my psyche. i.e:
Q: "What did you do with the ring?"
A: "I gave it back to him." -explanation: I gave the ring back to Kevan because I thought that's what people did. I have since learned that if a man breaks off the engagement the woman has a right to keep the ring because it was his gift to her and his fault for ending it. So, a woman can keep the ring for compensation. I certainly don't want it anymore. It's not like I would ever be able to wear and not not consider it an engagement ring. I certainly don't need a physical reminder like that in my life.
Q: "Don't you ever talk to him or miss him?"
A "No I don't really ever talk to him, and sure sometimes I miss him that's natural" -explanation: I don't want to talk to Kevan right now. It's become apparent to me that he doesn't want to speak to me either. Which I think is quite alright for both of us. We have moved on. Yes I do miss the good times we had together. I miss his friendship certainly. But I'm not going to mope and mourn something that isn't there anymore. It's in the past and we both bear no ill will towards each other.
Lots of people ask why he proposed and didn't go through with it. I don't really have an answer to that one. However, I am grateful that we didn't get married. We weren't really in love at the end of it. And if it never ended, I would have never started dating Matt. I would have never moved back to Des Moines. I would have never grown like I have over the past 5 months.
A lot of people still don't know or don't know what happened. I guess that's because I didn't blow it up all over facebook. I didn't want to.
I think I have a lot more to be thankful for since it ended and a lot less to be angry or sad about.
Q: "What did you do with the ring?"
A: "I gave it back to him." -explanation: I gave the ring back to Kevan because I thought that's what people did. I have since learned that if a man breaks off the engagement the woman has a right to keep the ring because it was his gift to her and his fault for ending it. So, a woman can keep the ring for compensation. I certainly don't want it anymore. It's not like I would ever be able to wear and not not consider it an engagement ring. I certainly don't need a physical reminder like that in my life.
Q: "Don't you ever talk to him or miss him?"
A "No I don't really ever talk to him, and sure sometimes I miss him that's natural" -explanation: I don't want to talk to Kevan right now. It's become apparent to me that he doesn't want to speak to me either. Which I think is quite alright for both of us. We have moved on. Yes I do miss the good times we had together. I miss his friendship certainly. But I'm not going to mope and mourn something that isn't there anymore. It's in the past and we both bear no ill will towards each other.
Lots of people ask why he proposed and didn't go through with it. I don't really have an answer to that one. However, I am grateful that we didn't get married. We weren't really in love at the end of it. And if it never ended, I would have never started dating Matt. I would have never moved back to Des Moines. I would have never grown like I have over the past 5 months.
A lot of people still don't know or don't know what happened. I guess that's because I didn't blow it up all over facebook. I didn't want to.
I think I have a lot more to be thankful for since it ended and a lot less to be angry or sad about.