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Oh hey.
It's been like four months since I posted my 'hey, I'm probably jumping ship' post. I'm not really sure if I'm 'back' or not, but I really didn't have anywhere else to put this and I felt the need to put it *somewhere*.
I'm sort of back to having alienated myself from almost everyone I've ever known.
The last year and a half have been really rough. So rough that I'm not sure I could even explain if I wanted to. I'm really, really burnt out.
In February of 2012, I had a friend come move in with me. Supposedly she was getting kicked out of her house, and needed a place to stay, and I was in need of a roommate since my previous one had moved out.
Over the course of a year, she basically ruined my life. She lied, she leeched, she sabotaged her job applications and interviews, and lived off me for a year. This girl owes me $6,000 in back rent, and that's not including anything else.
The worst part is that while she was living with me, she befriended most of my (then) current group of friends, alienated me from them, and lied to many of them about me repeatedly. I managed to kick her out mid-January, right before I posted my last entry. At that point I just cut myself off from the internet entirely, rather than try to deal with the drama of sorting everything out because of her. So, I jumped ship here, too. I just didn't want anything of mine online, period.
But I'm exhausted and ill both physically and mentally and I've been kicked into the ground more times than I can handle, so I'm in a pretty abysmally pathetic state right now. I cut myself out of almost all my friendships and fandoms and deleted years and years worth of writing, blog entries, and other such things. I tried to come back a month or so ago and pick back up where I left off, but it didn't work.
I feel really lost and tired.
I'm trying to refriend some people, but weeding through inactive accounts is slow going, so if you don't see me add you back then feel free to poke me to speed up the process.
It's been like four months since I posted my 'hey, I'm probably jumping ship' post. I'm not really sure if I'm 'back' or not, but I really didn't have anywhere else to put this and I felt the need to put it *somewhere*.
I'm sort of back to having alienated myself from almost everyone I've ever known.
The last year and a half have been really rough. So rough that I'm not sure I could even explain if I wanted to. I'm really, really burnt out.
In February of 2012, I had a friend come move in with me. Supposedly she was getting kicked out of her house, and needed a place to stay, and I was in need of a roommate since my previous one had moved out.
Over the course of a year, she basically ruined my life. She lied, she leeched, she sabotaged her job applications and interviews, and lived off me for a year. This girl owes me $6,000 in back rent, and that's not including anything else.
The worst part is that while she was living with me, she befriended most of my (then) current group of friends, alienated me from them, and lied to many of them about me repeatedly. I managed to kick her out mid-January, right before I posted my last entry. At that point I just cut myself off from the internet entirely, rather than try to deal with the drama of sorting everything out because of her. So, I jumped ship here, too. I just didn't want anything of mine online, period.
But I'm exhausted and ill both physically and mentally and I've been kicked into the ground more times than I can handle, so I'm in a pretty abysmally pathetic state right now. I cut myself out of almost all my friendships and fandoms and deleted years and years worth of writing, blog entries, and other such things. I tried to come back a month or so ago and pick back up where I left off, but it didn't work.
I feel really lost and tired.
I'm trying to refriend some people, but weeding through inactive accounts is slow going, so if you don't see me add you back then feel free to poke me to speed up the process.