nostalgic. wait this should go in my moods.
LJ you have been neglected. why is this. oh, hey facebook.
i've been let down again. my lack of competitiveness makes me lose. why is that such a hard concept? actually, let's not kid myself here. this time it's not because i didn't TRY. i just simply wasn't good enough. i'm going to go back to not competing and therefore allowing me to use that excuse. it's just easier.
i think i miss one night stands. so much less scary. so much more in control.
it's probably not a good thing to just be continuously thinking about the past. thinking about all these memories that were so incredibly PRESENT. all those people who you used to expect a call from, whereas if they called now it'd be the weirdest shock in the world. i would screen their phone calls probably - if i had their numbers. it's so weird who i miss and who i don't. it's also weird to see who i ended up with and who was cut out of my life. what weird decisions i made.
i want to talk to who i hurt. and i want to talk to the people who hurt me. and i want to talk to who i used to make happy. and i want to talk to who used to make me happy. where are you?
i've been let down again. my lack of competitiveness makes me lose. why is that such a hard concept? actually, let's not kid myself here. this time it's not because i didn't TRY. i just simply wasn't good enough. i'm going to go back to not competing and therefore allowing me to use that excuse. it's just easier.
i think i miss one night stands. so much less scary. so much more in control.
it's probably not a good thing to just be continuously thinking about the past. thinking about all these memories that were so incredibly PRESENT. all those people who you used to expect a call from, whereas if they called now it'd be the weirdest shock in the world. i would screen their phone calls probably - if i had their numbers. it's so weird who i miss and who i don't. it's also weird to see who i ended up with and who was cut out of my life. what weird decisions i made.
i want to talk to who i hurt. and i want to talk to the people who hurt me. and i want to talk to who i used to make happy. and i want to talk to who used to make me happy. where are you?