hmm.
I HAVE ELECTRIC SIX TICKETS FOR NEXT WEEKEND!
I ALSO HAVE A COACHELLA TWO-DAY PASS!
I'M GOING TO BUY GRAHAM COXON TICKETS SOON!
Okay, heh. So I'm in school and I have no motivation for it whatsoever. I think it has to do with the fact that I started out with FIVE classes and TWO jobs and so I quickly burnt out. By next week, it'll be down to three classes and 1.5 jobs, heh.
Life is good, busy, & fun. I ditched school yesterday (sad!) and went to see Finding Neverland and The Life Aquatic. The Life Aquatic was brilliant and I was holding back tears almost the entire time I was watching Finding Neverland. It feels nice to do things by myself. I think the last time I really did was almost two years ago when I was single. I think I'm finally finding some sort of compromise between relationship, friends, and myself. Of course, there are some kinks but eh, working on it.
drawingon & I sorta saw Appleseed last night. It was some anime movie that I fell asleep during - I hope he liked it though. I keep forgetting to ask him what he thought of it. Then I came home for a few hours & then headed over to hereticalpigeon's to sleep. I really wish R had a different work schedule so I could be all codependent but alas, he doesn't and I cannot. And so, we make due. Things are changing for us but they seem to be in a healthy way so that's good (of course, he might say differently).
I sort of have this entirely new outlook on life - well for the past six months or so. I don't put any energy into things that could possibly have a negative effect on my happiness - I simply do not give a shit about them. There are some serious drawbacks to this little plan, one of which is the fact that I'm growing increasingly more selfish & less-compassionate. I'm not sure how to resolve this yet but it's something I think about. Right now it sort of seems like a small price to pay for my happiness which I hadn't had for years prior to all of this. Seriously, things look different now. A couple of months ago I was tripping out because colors looked more saturated, things that I had looked at & seen before countless times somehow looked different & I couldn't figure out why. It's all so fascinating & brilliant to me that I don't want to give it up and I don't care about things that try to get in the way. So I'm happy but I have a fuck-it-all attitude and I know that can be self-destructive. Oh the fun.
I got a porn catalogue in the mail today. *shrug* I don't know why.