Your love is like a soldier, loyal till you die.
My mind says I shouldn't do this, but a part of my heart will die if I don't. So, taking a deep breath and jumping in with both feet...
Have you ever have moments when you miss someone that you knew; and everything that you do, everywhere that you go, you kept seeing her(or his) shadow again and again?
I have been missing longsunday.
I have been pretty much out of the writing community for the past 7 years. When my sister came to visit at the end of March, she was trying to hunt down some manga books. We search every stores in the neighborhood, one particular store was specialized in doushinji. I was bored and the sales girl was good. I came home with a novel, an original slash pairing - a genre I haven't read in 5 years.
The book was good, but I can think of a person who does it better.
That was the start. It made me realized that I missed longsunday.
Have had. Have been.
In April, my brother wanted to go to Austria during his summer holidays. He also remembered I have a thing with Prague. "Let's do Eastern Europe", he said.
So, last month, I walked over Charles Bridge and roamed over the cobblestone of the old Prague street.
Staring into the shimering reflection of the sun against the surface of the Vltava. I missed longsunday.
Last week I bought a serie of yaoi novels call The Sin Series. I thought of another man called Sin who used to walk the dark alley of Paris.
He was her creation. And I really missed longsunday.
Last night, I watch London Spy. I don't know if she has watched it, but I think this might be something she likes.
Maybe not. But I realized, everthing makes me think of her. I've missed longsunday.
Today, I needed to contact someone using an old e-mail I haven't used in a long time. I found a livejournal notification from December of last year. It was a reponse posted by someone under Anonymous who has, now, became a shadow. It was from longsunday.
And like two ships passing in the night. I missed longsunday.
Does a heart make a sound when it bleeds?
Wherever you are, I wish you are well and having the time of your life.
I hope you are happy. Be happy. Please, be happy.
I've missed you. You and your words.
And I always will.
PS - Do you still write? Are you out there, writing, somewhere? I miss your words.