And my house is a wooden one and its built on a wooden one
As January 1st of 2009 quietly creeping in like something untamed from the wild, with its flashing reflective eyes fixated on its goal, I kept bouncing up and down between calm and panic.
I decided this might be a good time to take a "gap year". It seems like a good thing for a person going through a mid-life crisis.
First thing after the New Year, I'm planning to take a train out to Lawrence, Kansas. Why Lawrence, Kansas, you asked? Well, first of all, the long-distance super fantabulous girlfriend is 25 miles from there, and she is willing to put up with me for a few days. And second...
I've been from here to Lawrence, Kansas
Trying to leave my state of mind
Trying to leave this awful sadness
But I can't leave this world behind
...
Some prophecies are self-fulfilling
But I've had to work for all of mine
Better times will come to me, God willing
Cause I can't leave this world behind
...
Preacher says when the Master calls us
He's gonna give us wings to fly
But my wings are made of hay and corn husks
So I can't leave this world behind
This is one of my favorite songs of all times. The song is called "Lawrence Kansas."
I say it's Fate.
I can fly at about the same price, but since I don't have to take leave from work, I figured I have all the time in the world, and I want to see the countryside. I was going to take greyhound, but the long-distance super fantabulous girlfriend suggested AmTrak - because she is sensible and fantabulous that way - which is better, much better than the bus ride, because well, train!
You can probably tell, I'm pretty excited.
I also want to do Mardi Gras in February. Or, at least, visit New Orleans. Of course, I only have a traveling-hobo budget.
Rose, if you are reading this...what are the possibilities? I really want to go visit the Voodoo City, Mardi Gras is actually secondary.
Then, I want to go see my daddy in Thailand, and expedite my lay-off bonus plane ticket and go to Ireland. I want to go ride horses in Ireland, and maybe catch a few faeries.
So, unless I find a job, looks like my feet are going to be on fire in 2009.
[Edit to add]: So, yes. One day I felt distraught and alone in a cold cruel world. The next day, I have the world cheering and rooting for me and my survival.
The ground is shaky and life is filled with excitements.