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I dont know why but everything today seemed so hard for my mind to comprehend, all biology stuart kept talking to me and getting ME in trouble and i couldtn concentrate on the lab and gah im going to kill him.
then math... which was frustrating on its own, im trying to understand this stuff but its just not working well. Nathan was helping me and i ended up spazzing and started to cry but yeah no one notices usually, except maybe nathan, so the rest of the day i kept rerunning everything nathan and alex have told me through my head and repeating things over and over and during my lunch period when i went to take that math quiz i got a 100 now how cool is that. i think i have the capability to do well but for somereason the getting there seems so hard. i have to do the same thing a zillion times and i usually still dont get it.
Then Latin where its been okay lately, i mean sometimes john and theo can be mean but theyre only having fun but sometimes i cant take it. I ended up crying (Again- note how my day went) and latin totally confuses me i dont understand anything, and when i ask them for help, john trys explaining and i love him but theos like "your stupid you should know this go away" so i get frustrated really quickly, i wish i had rummy at lunch to be like "help explain this" because i was doing so so last year i mean i understood stuff if i put in effort this year its impossible i hate my teacher and she confuses me like hell...
then in history i always feel really annoying, by that time of day im always trying to be bubbly and happy to make up for the rest of my day so i try talking to courtney and i end up annoying people i think, like courtney and ben, but then theres stuart who uber annoys them so i dont think i compare.
for some reason he was more annoying that usual today. and in english we did those personality things and for one question it was like "do you care when you hurt people" or something like that and stuart says from across the room "brittanys answering no to that one, she enjoys making people feel miserable" an d its like yeah... i enjoy making people feel like crap... of course... thats totally me..
then i realized, no i just enjoy making stuart feel like crap when he starts it first, when hes nice to me im nice to him, if hes mean to me i bitch him out... maybe i should just be nice and bubbly all the time and people would think better of it.
then math... which was frustrating on its own, im trying to understand this stuff but its just not working well. Nathan was helping me and i ended up spazzing and started to cry but yeah no one notices usually, except maybe nathan, so the rest of the day i kept rerunning everything nathan and alex have told me through my head and repeating things over and over and during my lunch period when i went to take that math quiz i got a 100 now how cool is that. i think i have the capability to do well but for somereason the getting there seems so hard. i have to do the same thing a zillion times and i usually still dont get it.
Then Latin where its been okay lately, i mean sometimes john and theo can be mean but theyre only having fun but sometimes i cant take it. I ended up crying (Again- note how my day went) and latin totally confuses me i dont understand anything, and when i ask them for help, john trys explaining and i love him but theos like "your stupid you should know this go away" so i get frustrated really quickly, i wish i had rummy at lunch to be like "help explain this" because i was doing so so last year i mean i understood stuff if i put in effort this year its impossible i hate my teacher and she confuses me like hell...
then in history i always feel really annoying, by that time of day im always trying to be bubbly and happy to make up for the rest of my day so i try talking to courtney and i end up annoying people i think, like courtney and ben, but then theres stuart who uber annoys them so i dont think i compare.
for some reason he was more annoying that usual today. and in english we did those personality things and for one question it was like "do you care when you hurt people" or something like that and stuart says from across the room "brittanys answering no to that one, she enjoys making people feel miserable" an d its like yeah... i enjoy making people feel like crap... of course... thats totally me..
then i realized, no i just enjoy making stuart feel like crap when he starts it first, when hes nice to me im nice to him, if hes mean to me i bitch him out... maybe i should just be nice and bubbly all the time and people would think better of it.