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this whole past year has become one big blur, its already almost august agian! whats going on! what have i learned, i think i went and fell inlove with someone, i think i really lost myself agian, got to caught up in a good thing, hopefully i havent lost it for good, both myself and what ive had this past amost 10 months. it really dosent feel like a year has passed, I mean ive done so much, but it feels like so little all at the same time, ive gone to detroit, st. louis, columbus ohio, savannah ga twice, destin, atlanta, st augistine, paris, brussels, amsterdam, berlin, prauge, munich, rome, florence, venice, monaco, nice. And it feels like im sitting still. Ive graduated high school, taken thousands of pictures, found someone out there like me and truley loved them if it only lasted until now thats still quite an accomplishment, considering i didnt ever think i would find anyone. Ive torn my car limb from limb, sold my legions of plastic men, made lush jungles of plastic and harsh bare deserts of foam. Seen old friends and made new from far off lands. Passed through the bowels of the community college system, driven thousands of miles to get hot steamy pizzas to your doorstep, changed my school choices 3 times, wrote beautiful essays, lost 50 lbs of fat and or muscle, changed hairstyles and perfered brand of everything, drank foreign beer in a foreign mcdonalds, found new bands, loved new songs, slept in her arms, held her in mine
but where do i stand, i dont know, am i stronger? Ive still got so much ahead of me, and things are looking bright on the horizion but it still feels like im fighting a uphill battle all on my own, i guess thats life,we all just have to figure things out for our selves? just when you think your closer to completion that half of you leaves, almost 10 months now, sounds like a long time but its not, all those other things pale in comparison to the real time spent with her, am i just supposed to forget that and press on, i suppose i have alot more important things to do
i think it really all comes back to this one little quote i left myself to find
He who knows other men is discerning; he who knows himself is intelligent. He who overcomes others is strong; he who overcomes himself is mighty. He who is satisfied with his lot is rich; he who goes on acting with energy has a firm will. He who does not fail in the requirements of his position, continues long; he who dies and yet does not perish, has longevity.
i have rebuilding to do
but where do i stand, i dont know, am i stronger? Ive still got so much ahead of me, and things are looking bright on the horizion but it still feels like im fighting a uphill battle all on my own, i guess thats life,we all just have to figure things out for our selves? just when you think your closer to completion that half of you leaves, almost 10 months now, sounds like a long time but its not, all those other things pale in comparison to the real time spent with her, am i just supposed to forget that and press on, i suppose i have alot more important things to do
i think it really all comes back to this one little quote i left myself to find
He who knows other men is discerning; he who knows himself is intelligent. He who overcomes others is strong; he who overcomes himself is mighty. He who is satisfied with his lot is rich; he who goes on acting with energy has a firm will. He who does not fail in the requirements of his position, continues long; he who dies and yet does not perish, has longevity.
i have rebuilding to do