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COLON MUTHAFUCKEN CAPITAL D, MAN. :D
Still totally not a big enough grin. I am just....thrilled. I feel like I'm going to explode. I haven't been able to stop smiling since last night, when Paul responded to my message. He liiiiikes me. Has been planning to ask me out ever since he read my first story, but kept chickening out, he says. GUH. He's adorable. And totally willing to indulge me and plan the date since I admitted that I am super bad at that because I've only ever done it like, once before.
He also said he's super busy, like all the time always, but will definitely make time for this no matter what. And that right there nearly killed me. Adam never bothered to make time for me. If there was free time, I was invited to share it with him, but I was never important enough for him to want to make time for me. Which I guess might be a little bit selfish, but it always kind of made me feel...unwanted? And here, right off the bat, Paul says he's willing to create a time that we can get together, so that's just like...a good sign, I guess? And it feels great.
He said I have nice eyes, and that the fact that I'm a good writer is incredibly sexy. SEXY. Boys have complimented me before, but no one has ever used the word "sexy" when talking about me. And that also feels GREAT.
He also said it was really attractive that I was confident enough to have made the first move. HAHAHA. If only he knew how fantastically nervous and utterly falling apart I'd been in the half hour I spent staring at my typed message before hitting send, and then the four hours I spent obsessively checking my email to see if he had responded...
SMILE SMILE SMILEY JESSIE.
Still totally not a big enough grin. I am just....thrilled. I feel like I'm going to explode. I haven't been able to stop smiling since last night, when Paul responded to my message. He liiiiikes me. Has been planning to ask me out ever since he read my first story, but kept chickening out, he says. GUH. He's adorable. And totally willing to indulge me and plan the date since I admitted that I am super bad at that because I've only ever done it like, once before.
He also said he's super busy, like all the time always, but will definitely make time for this no matter what. And that right there nearly killed me. Adam never bothered to make time for me. If there was free time, I was invited to share it with him, but I was never important enough for him to want to make time for me. Which I guess might be a little bit selfish, but it always kind of made me feel...unwanted? And here, right off the bat, Paul says he's willing to create a time that we can get together, so that's just like...a good sign, I guess? And it feels great.
He said I have nice eyes, and that the fact that I'm a good writer is incredibly sexy. SEXY. Boys have complimented me before, but no one has ever used the word "sexy" when talking about me. And that also feels GREAT.
He also said it was really attractive that I was confident enough to have made the first move. HAHAHA. If only he knew how fantastically nervous and utterly falling apart I'd been in the half hour I spent staring at my typed message before hitting send, and then the four hours I spent obsessively checking my email to see if he had responded...
SMILE SMILE SMILEY JESSIE.