boy oh boy

[imperfection_x]

woahh, this weekend was the SHIT, haha ive been with friends all weekend and still am, -smiles-. way to much stuff to put all details, umm friday me and kaylan went to the mall and hung out with kyndal, dustin, amber, valerie, desiere, this hot mofo brandon..mMm,then me and kaylan went out to eat then we went to her house and hung out then i spent the night, oh yeah..then i went home around 1230 cuz it was my bros bday (19!) and we went out for lunch blahblah,My brother had a party with many of his OH SO SEXY friends, oh god..*orgAsM* then Amber and Kate came over and we decided we wanted to start a band like Eisley, we already made up two songs and there about MeEe being sad, lol its funny but sad "rachael dont cry III know it hurts buttt" and i dont wanan put more because its..personal..lol and amber made a guitar riff for it and it sounds sooo pretty, then we wrote a ReaL song and it switches between me and amber singing, ah its so pretty. and yeah..our band is going to be called "Crimson skyline" i think its neat..So yeah..then my mom came home so drunk it was embaressing :( but funny..haha then around 2 am, CHASE THE GREAT went to jack in the box for us and brought us food, to my window and we didnt even have to pay him back! yay for you chase! then we recorded the "dont cry" song and were gonna put it on the computer and im going to put it on my XANGA journal that nobody knows, haha oh yes. and youll never know it either..lol..well to tonight, oh my goodness, talk about I LOVE THE KIRBY. dude..they were so fucking good i jizzed everywhere. I was starring at the bassist and he obviously noticed cuz i just wouldnt stop looking at him ( cuz oh baby he was hawt shit) and then around 1030 after manatee played ( we didnt wanna watch cruiserweight or dynamite boy cuz..ew...) we were standing by the exit cuz my tummy started hurting really bad and it hasnt hurt like this WHOLE week, then boom it decides to hurt..then the bassist from the kirby walks by and he changed into a COLLAR shirt oohhohohoho god, so fucking hawt. and amber walked up to him, i was too shy at first because i was like stalking him hed think..but then amber grabbed me and pulled me over to him and he was liek HEEEEEEEEEEY WHATS YOUR NAME! and i was like "rachael" blahblah then the guitarest came over and he goes hey im ...blahblah..and kate wasnt talking and anthony (bassist) goes "DUDE shes silent but deadly, like a FART" lmao it was very entertaining.. then i talked to him about music for like 10 minutes, it made me really happy, and i asked if he liked coheed and cambria and he was like "OMG FUCK YEAH ID DIE TO BE IN THEIR BAND!" and i was like mm lets do IT. but i didnt say that..and he likes everytime i die and underoath and at the drive in and the mars volta..blahblah but hes like 20, so sad hes too old for me. damnit..but then i got a picture with his arm around me :-D and then he was like yall got on our mailing list RIGHT?! and we were like yep and he was like alright ill see yall later..haha it was sooooo flgk'dflkgl'esktrlkdglkdfkg. i felt like the shit. lol. but me and amber were like really pissed off and we wanted to go to the most pit during manatee so..we did..omg it was so fucking releiving.. i just beat the crap out of anyone around me..ah god it was wOnDeRfUl, A STILL SECOND also kicked ass if i do say so myself. there were a lot of ppl there,Josh was there it made me really sad. :'(. but he gave me a hug and that was unexpected i wanted to like rape him and smile all big..but i didnt..... lol..fdgjfkgkrlkljfdlgk;jfdgkjfklgjfkjtfg. ummm... oh ahha amber was talking about A still second to her mom, and her mom goes "still sucking??" it was funny..haha..yeah.. i already want it to be next weekend cuz im going to the manatee show next friday TOO! three weekends in a row, thats real loyality there..lol..um.. my heart hurts inside, and my hands hurt from typing, and my friend at my school named matt listenend to my mp3 player (every time i die and underoath) and he looked at me and goes "are you satanic?" haha it was funnnyyyyy. um well me and amber and kate are going to go watch "underworld" then listen to the kirby cuz..mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. im obsessed with them now even though joey (setaflame) doesnt like them and neither does my brother..hmmm oh well..lol wow joey came to our house yesterday lord hail mercey hes sooooooooooooooooooooooooo hott and i talked to him for a lil bit, and he was like "mk well yall have fun" and i was like "OH, we WIll, you too!" ha..it sounded funny..but maybe its not..this is a long ass entry so ill be leaving now, much love

-rachael-

And if i cant have you
ill just close my eyes
and pretend that
pretend that you are mine..

PLEASE dont make me cry..
please dont make me cry..
im just like you i know you know..
im just like you so leave me alone

..i feel like a toy..