OHH GOD NO MORE PLEASE!
Lets start off with Sunday shall we....
Ok well As most of you know I have been sick lately and Sunday I woke up feeling like crap. The baby was in a fussy mood and my mom had hurt her back from work the day before so she could not help. Not like she should help but with the way I felt it would have been nice had she not been in pain. Anyway moving on...I was feeling better later on that day and decided to make a cake, yeah I had no frosting. So I just called them brownies. I had laundry that needed to be done and since the mother was laid up I had to to do it myself. I was so proud of myelf, I did not fall walking down the stairs. NO, instead with my supper dumb ass talent, I tripped walking up the stairs but fell backwards. No worries I didn'y break any bones. I might have cause more trama to my brain but oh well.
So later, much later that night I was up till about 3 AM. I was in heaven for several hours, no not having sex. I was talking to the guy of my dreams, I think.
Monday......
After being up half of the night and eating too many "brownies" I had to wake up at 7AM. Very soon after waking up I throw everything up from the day before. Oh yeah real nice. So needless to say I didn't go to work and neither did my mom. So I go take Aiden to daycare and I locked my keys in the car. So I had to wait an hour for my mom to come get me, and we live maybe 10 minutes away from the daycare. Yeah it was a bad morning to have worn a short sleave shirt.
So went home and slept till 3. I so needed that.
Now for the juicy shit....
So my lack of sex streak ended last night. I have liked him off and on I think going on 5 years. I come to find out last night he feels the same way. Yeah too bad he has a girlfriend. He says he doesn't want to really be with her anymore. She is pressing to get married. He says he doesn't want to marry her, he wants to marry me. And for some reason still unknown to me, I believed that line last night. It hurt like shit to see them together before this, now I am not sure if I will be able to keep from crying when I see them. Even if he leaves her, what the hell are we going to do. I have 2 kids, he makes shit for money, I need more then he can offer. Even if I believe him when he says he loves me that does me no good if we can't be together or make it together. I have been in this situation(several times) with him before and it did not work then. What is different now that will make things work. His girl hates me and because of this I really don't talk to him or see him that often. It may be another week before we can get face to face again. How the hell do I deal with that shit. I woke up this morning crying knowing this shit. The thought of him still with her, touching her, I know he tells her he loves her. I don't think I can do this. I love him but damn it just hurts way too much. God I have been cheated on and now I am the other woman. What the fuck is wrong with me?
And no he is not in the "group".
Ok well As most of you know I have been sick lately and Sunday I woke up feeling like crap. The baby was in a fussy mood and my mom had hurt her back from work the day before so she could not help. Not like she should help but with the way I felt it would have been nice had she not been in pain. Anyway moving on...I was feeling better later on that day and decided to make a cake, yeah I had no frosting. So I just called them brownies. I had laundry that needed to be done and since the mother was laid up I had to to do it myself. I was so proud of myelf, I did not fall walking down the stairs. NO, instead with my supper dumb ass talent, I tripped walking up the stairs but fell backwards. No worries I didn'y break any bones. I might have cause more trama to my brain but oh well.
So later, much later that night I was up till about 3 AM. I was in heaven for several hours, no not having sex. I was talking to the guy of my dreams, I think.
Monday......
After being up half of the night and eating too many "brownies" I had to wake up at 7AM. Very soon after waking up I throw everything up from the day before. Oh yeah real nice. So needless to say I didn't go to work and neither did my mom. So I go take Aiden to daycare and I locked my keys in the car. So I had to wait an hour for my mom to come get me, and we live maybe 10 minutes away from the daycare. Yeah it was a bad morning to have worn a short sleave shirt.
So went home and slept till 3. I so needed that.
Now for the juicy shit....
So my lack of sex streak ended last night. I have liked him off and on I think going on 5 years. I come to find out last night he feels the same way. Yeah too bad he has a girlfriend. He says he doesn't want to really be with her anymore. She is pressing to get married. He says he doesn't want to marry her, he wants to marry me. And for some reason still unknown to me, I believed that line last night. It hurt like shit to see them together before this, now I am not sure if I will be able to keep from crying when I see them. Even if he leaves her, what the hell are we going to do. I have 2 kids, he makes shit for money, I need more then he can offer. Even if I believe him when he says he loves me that does me no good if we can't be together or make it together. I have been in this situation(several times) with him before and it did not work then. What is different now that will make things work. His girl hates me and because of this I really don't talk to him or see him that often. It may be another week before we can get face to face again. How the hell do I deal with that shit. I woke up this morning crying knowing this shit. The thought of him still with her, touching her, I know he tells her he loves her. I don't think I can do this. I love him but damn it just hurts way too much. God I have been cheated on and now I am the other woman. What the fuck is wrong with me?
And no he is not in the "group".