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Where am I going in my life?
What will become of me in the next 2 years - will I even been accepted into college , possibly get any scholarships?
Do I have a secret talent yet to be discoverd ?
Why is my head filled with so many questions..
My dog had surgery yesterday - my mom was stressed out, there goes a couple hundred dollars for her christmas shopping she wanted to use. Whatever..I'll be fine, I wont die w/o everything I want.
What I really want for christmas :
- To see my mom again
- Be happy during this holiday season.
- Be with my " boo " that I dont have, and be kissed under the mistle toe
I'm sure it will get longer as the list goes on as time progresses.
Can somebody please explain to me who I am and what my purpose in life is?
Yes I know I've sounded a little bit morbid lately, I'm not completely sure why, but what I do know is that the message from Johnny on retreat about us being who we are inside and not hide with a mask has stuck with me since. I'm sorry I'm not happy go lucky 24/7 like some people, but I know everyone has their bad days, mine just happen to be everyday - even if I dont show it.
Can somebody please tell me why my childhood is haunting this present life I live?
What did I do wrong to make you leave me mommy - I'm sorry - I love you and I miss you...
The tears from my eyes are like the rain that falls from the sky in a sweet surrender as they've held to much inside.
This small hand of mine is the one that reaches out for help with the silent screams tearing her up.
Your face in my head and voice of sweet sounds take over me, as I reminice of our times spent with each-other.
You left without a word, leaving me alone with the broken heart thats been attempted to be fixed but has to many wounds to be the way it was...
Okay, yea, thats all I have for now w/ that poem...
"Sometimes I wonder who I am and if I'll ever find a way out from this cell of pain and mourning... " - Me
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School, boring, I was up till 1:30 last night doing that stupid Transcendentalist homework assignment that WANST collected today, which I could kill Mr. Ravlin for not being here. I swear If I get a bad grade on that I will flip out..I've worked and though really really hard on that, and it takes a lot for me to do that. Thank God theres only 7 more days left of school till winter break.
Tonights the last episode of LAGUNA BEACH :( I'm sad..I wonder if they'll have another season next year?
Wednesday church..meh..we'll see how that goes.
Thursday : The O.C.!!!!!!! I'll probably call Gaelen and see what hes doin - if he not busy with his " boys " all the time
fdjafkl;eaf I'm so confused right now...who am I...