Im reuniting with old habits./INAUGURATION 09
Well hello and how I've missed my LJ so much! I'm back because I feel as if I dont have anyone to talk to really...so heres been my life summed up :
Im now almost 20 years old, Ive been out of school for almost three years AND WE FINALLY HAVE A BLACK PRESIDENT : BARACK OBAMA!! Today i witnessed history in the making!!
we also hit $3.00 A GALLON FOR GAS THIS PAST SUMMER! then it went down to 1. 95!! ..now its goin back up..fuckin A..
I finaly have my own apartment out in Wixom MI , been living there for the last 8 months with my current boyfriend Gaelen. we had a lil family wit 2 cats..but we almost got evicted so George and Rascal had to go :(
.I'm so lost right now...I love him to death..but my old habits die hard...( P.D.) We still dont have a baby..so whoever thunk I would get knocked up right after HS..kiss my ass.
I've gotten a much more independent outlook on my life..." Dont worry, I GOT IT"..just like jamie foxx say :) I got my own house, own car, a job and i work hard, and i look gooood too. I'm trying to figure out exactly whats best for me right now and im stuck in between a rock and a hard place..i wanna stay wit G but i just feel like i need my own space right about now. We been attached at the hip for over a year and a half now..and he still cant get enough of me. I love him to death i really do, but some of the things he reacts to and shit he does truely drives me mad to the point of calling it quits..but the only thing is i cant get the balls to do it. .Im emotionally attached to him and i dont know how to cut that loose.
My 20th birthday is less than a month away and im doin me this time to..My new years was nothing how i wanted it to be..( got way to drunk to even say happy new year when midnight struck! lol SO this year..maybe reserve A VIP section somewhere downtown at a club then just dance the night away like i always love to do and just enjoying being a young adult. wow..20 years old..ew..im gettin old so fast..
Theres so much i need to do.. I need to find a second job..and dancing doesnt sound so bad right bout now that the economy sucks asss. somebody needs to step up and take care of his girl b4 somebody else finds me and does it better!! ..but im not pose to say anything..just sit and smile right..naw F that. You aint buy me shit..why??? ur supposed to be my man right??> THEN ACT LIKE ONE UR 22 YEARS OLD MY NIGGA!! commonnnn now..
ugh...Idk I just felt like venting on this old ass shit again lol. my how times changed. but hey..im still out here in the world tryn to make it and keep my head up..and i still smoke to much weed. lol but never gonna quiteeeeeee love it..
i miss my niggas ; charlese, chelsea, brittany, stacey, diona, wally, jarron, paymon i miss my homies...for reallll i need to get out..i need to know that the grass will b greener on the other side..cuz im loosin all hope and patience in me and everything around me...