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I havent updated in a while, mostly because I never know where to start when I think too much. My daughters father saw her yesterday, so I have been thinking non stop. I guess I am at a point in my life where my opinions about relationships is starting to look jaded because whenever I think about it, or meet someone this is how I lok at it.
You will never really know me, I won't let you.
You can never really hurt me, no one will get that close again.
You may always see the happy person before you who seems strong and in controll, but you will never know who I am inside.
I don't trust people, so don't think I trust you for a minute.
My walls are so high and thick that I really don't think I would know where to start, maybe with trust, if it were possible.
My heart is only really open to my daughter, I have realized this.
She is the only one who may ever know who I really am.
I am not who I seem, just a great actress.
I want what I can never have because I am my worst enemy.
You won't love me, or hurt me or know me because I am on the inside and you aren't you will never know my heart.
I think it's sad and tragic but it's a part of who I am becoming.
You will never really know me, I won't let you.
You can never really hurt me, no one will get that close again.
You may always see the happy person before you who seems strong and in controll, but you will never know who I am inside.
I don't trust people, so don't think I trust you for a minute.
My walls are so high and thick that I really don't think I would know where to start, maybe with trust, if it were possible.
My heart is only really open to my daughter, I have realized this.
She is the only one who may ever know who I really am.
I am not who I seem, just a great actress.
I want what I can never have because I am my worst enemy.
You won't love me, or hurt me or know me because I am on the inside and you aren't you will never know my heart.
I think it's sad and tragic but it's a part of who I am becoming.