wow
so many things changed. As an adult I had begun to believe that things don't really change. Not really, or if they do only slowly. But the last year has challenged that theory, and now I think I have to admit that maybe things can really change. I can change, others can change, the world can be truly different - and not just a change in view or focus, but some fundamental changes.
I think I like it.
And on a related topic, I think I have figured out how to cope with a decent amount of chaos. things were never the way I wanted to make them be, they just are what they are. So I've figured out how to accept what is without having to change what I want or wish. In the process of this learning I now have a pretty good idea of how much chaos I can handle gracefully and mostly I can see a breaking point coming.
Now what to do when you see a breaking point coming? Chaos isn't really one of those things that is stopped easily. Currently upon realization that I couldn't handle any more, I have instead gone to hide from everything. It's a little extreme, seems to make a mess of my brains or responsibilities or relationships for a short time and takes time to dig out of. Seems like I should be able to take shelter without everything imploding. what else to do?
It feels related to what I dealt with in my juggling responsibilities. but then I choose what to let hit the floor. Can one choose what chaos to deal with and "drop" the rest. Currently haven't put that theory into practice.
I think I like it.
And on a related topic, I think I have figured out how to cope with a decent amount of chaos. things were never the way I wanted to make them be, they just are what they are. So I've figured out how to accept what is without having to change what I want or wish. In the process of this learning I now have a pretty good idea of how much chaos I can handle gracefully and mostly I can see a breaking point coming.
Now what to do when you see a breaking point coming? Chaos isn't really one of those things that is stopped easily. Currently upon realization that I couldn't handle any more, I have instead gone to hide from everything. It's a little extreme, seems to make a mess of my brains or responsibilities or relationships for a short time and takes time to dig out of. Seems like I should be able to take shelter without everything imploding. what else to do?
It feels related to what I dealt with in my juggling responsibilities. but then I choose what to let hit the floor. Can one choose what chaos to deal with and "drop" the rest. Currently haven't put that theory into practice.