fuck this goddamn fmaily
how's life?? well it pretty much sucks right now .
I hear some of my friends say "I love my parents" and I cry because I have never said that and actually meant it . I just got in another fight with my mom and I told her I hope she dies . she doesnt seem to give a shit about me anymore . she says I care too much about my friends . how the fuck would she know?? I dont even fucking talk to her about shit because its pointless . I'll just get contradicted and lectured and I dont give a shit bout what she has to say anymore . she can be the biggest moron at times . she'll act like she knows me when I think its quite funny . If she knew me, she'd know bout 6th grade . but she doesnt and if I had ever told her, she'd prolly laugh or lecture me and then ground me . I cant take this goddamn fucking family anymore. Its full of bullshit . Casey is prolly the only one I trust in . she atleast gives a shit and talks to me . Rachel .. well who the fuck ever knows . It all depends on her mood . right now she's in Arkansas and I could never be happier . Alyson .. dont get me started . She's coming back this weekend and I bet I'll get bitched at again for something because you kno thats the cool thing to do and all . bitch at Sarah .
No one understands my fucking life and it pisses me off . No one knows how many nights I fucking cried myself to sleep . If I was to tell someone in my family that I think I suffer from depression .. they'd prolly laugh . it happened before . I told Casey that and she laughed and said I don't . but no one knows me and what I have to go through every fucking day .
Saturday I have an indoor fieldhockey game and I really want my friends to go watch but they're all hanging out with their boyfriends . Yea yea yea here I go with the "I wish I wasn't single" bulllshit but when you sit at a table of non-single girls who are always talking about their plans with their boyfriends .. thats all you'll ever think . don't get me wrong I dont have a problem at all with any of their boyfriends (well ok Matt Kelly I do but thats another reason) I think most of them are cool . but everyone will talk about going on double // triple dates with eachother and I just sit there thinking to myself "Wow I have no fucking life" and is really upsetting .
I hate my life . I havent been like this since 6th grade . oh yea I had a panic attack yesterday after school because I knew my mom would flip shit over the fact that I got a 68 in Computer Graphics .. sorry I didn't finish my fucking project?? fuck that shit I dont care anymore .
I hear some of my friends say "I love my parents" and I cry because I have never said that and actually meant it . I just got in another fight with my mom and I told her I hope she dies . she doesnt seem to give a shit about me anymore . she says I care too much about my friends . how the fuck would she know?? I dont even fucking talk to her about shit because its pointless . I'll just get contradicted and lectured and I dont give a shit bout what she has to say anymore . she can be the biggest moron at times . she'll act like she knows me when I think its quite funny . If she knew me, she'd know bout 6th grade . but she doesnt and if I had ever told her, she'd prolly laugh or lecture me and then ground me . I cant take this goddamn fucking family anymore. Its full of bullshit . Casey is prolly the only one I trust in . she atleast gives a shit and talks to me . Rachel .. well who the fuck ever knows . It all depends on her mood . right now she's in Arkansas and I could never be happier . Alyson .. dont get me started . She's coming back this weekend and I bet I'll get bitched at again for something because you kno thats the cool thing to do and all . bitch at Sarah .
No one understands my fucking life and it pisses me off . No one knows how many nights I fucking cried myself to sleep . If I was to tell someone in my family that I think I suffer from depression .. they'd prolly laugh . it happened before . I told Casey that and she laughed and said I don't . but no one knows me and what I have to go through every fucking day .
Saturday I have an indoor fieldhockey game and I really want my friends to go watch but they're all hanging out with their boyfriends . Yea yea yea here I go with the "I wish I wasn't single" bulllshit but when you sit at a table of non-single girls who are always talking about their plans with their boyfriends .. thats all you'll ever think . don't get me wrong I dont have a problem at all with any of their boyfriends (well ok Matt Kelly I do but thats another reason) I think most of them are cool . but everyone will talk about going on double // triple dates with eachother and I just sit there thinking to myself "Wow I have no fucking life" and is really upsetting .
I hate my life . I havent been like this since 6th grade . oh yea I had a panic attack yesterday after school because I knew my mom would flip shit over the fact that I got a 68 in Computer Graphics .. sorry I didn't finish my fucking project?? fuck that shit I dont care anymore .