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happy birthday cubero
143
so many things in life i still yet want to know
so many things i thought i would have figured out by now, but havent
ive been dreaming lately of the impossible
the scotch taping of every ripped piece of paper
and yet ive still had knowledge of junk in my head effecting my decisions
what am i to do in these situations
and for the rebound... i still get his fone calls once a week
then i deal with today and the struggles i face with the new guy
that are really not even worth it at all
the leash thats wrapped around my neck takes me to hell and back when im with the people who i want to be with most
i cant ever enjoy complete bliss in peace without the fone buzzing
go to sleep to him, wake up to him, leave for skewl to him, come home from skewl to him, leave for work to him, come hom from work to him, spend my whole spring break tied down to him---- i absolutely hate this life
no matter how many breathers i ask for, here is my first one since last time i updated
i asked to have personal space and to be able to hang out with my friends freely as i wish when i came into this
now im left with and unrespectful selfish insecure guy who wants all my time in fear of losing me to someone else
i can bet that he wont be losing me to someone else alrite.... he'll be losing me to being a control freak and never letting me be happy
and yet what i dont understand the most is that ive told him everything that i hate about him and he makes no effort to fix himself
i dont want to be with you ne longer
you have drained all ur luck and my care toward you
i have not been able to go to the beach once this whole spring break... i have not been able to hang out with any friends this whole spring break... and ne time i make the attempt to.. ur mad becuz ur not invited. too bad. dont u see the reality? the fact that im completely sick of you and that hanging out with my friends is an escape. do you now understand why i dont want you to be there??
maybe the way you are is what other girls look for in a relationship.... i only look for that to let myself know that i dont want to be in that relationship
i dont care how long we've been together at this point.... time doesnt matter
this is not at all what i was looking for in you
143
so many things in life i still yet want to know
so many things i thought i would have figured out by now, but havent
ive been dreaming lately of the impossible
the scotch taping of every ripped piece of paper
and yet ive still had knowledge of junk in my head effecting my decisions
what am i to do in these situations
and for the rebound... i still get his fone calls once a week
then i deal with today and the struggles i face with the new guy
that are really not even worth it at all
the leash thats wrapped around my neck takes me to hell and back when im with the people who i want to be with most
i cant ever enjoy complete bliss in peace without the fone buzzing
go to sleep to him, wake up to him, leave for skewl to him, come home from skewl to him, leave for work to him, come hom from work to him, spend my whole spring break tied down to him---- i absolutely hate this life
no matter how many breathers i ask for, here is my first one since last time i updated
i asked to have personal space and to be able to hang out with my friends freely as i wish when i came into this
now im left with and unrespectful selfish insecure guy who wants all my time in fear of losing me to someone else
i can bet that he wont be losing me to someone else alrite.... he'll be losing me to being a control freak and never letting me be happy
and yet what i dont understand the most is that ive told him everything that i hate about him and he makes no effort to fix himself
i dont want to be with you ne longer
you have drained all ur luck and my care toward you
i have not been able to go to the beach once this whole spring break... i have not been able to hang out with any friends this whole spring break... and ne time i make the attempt to.. ur mad becuz ur not invited. too bad. dont u see the reality? the fact that im completely sick of you and that hanging out with my friends is an escape. do you now understand why i dont want you to be there??
maybe the way you are is what other girls look for in a relationship.... i only look for that to let myself know that i dont want to be in that relationship
i dont care how long we've been together at this point.... time doesnt matter
this is not at all what i was looking for in you