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Ok, so today I was way pissed off and I came home "sick" because I was
afraid that if I had happened to rin into a certain somebody at school
I would have attacked and punched and beaten the crap outta her like
I've never beaten anyone before. and I was scared that I would lose
control o f my temper and then be screwed and not able to go to the
formal and have detention and citations and stuff, and right now I have
a perfectly clean record. so i called my dad and had him pick me
up and then in the car he was like "i know you aren't that sick, all
you have is a cold." and I was like..."uhm, yah. so why did you
come and get me then?" and he was like "i could tell something was
wrong"....hah! he has NOOOO idea! and so I was just silent and he
was like "tell me why you wanted to come home and I told him that I
didn't wanna lose my temper and get violent, so he let me come home and
my only thing is he is going to make me go see a councellor to work on
my anger issues with this one girl, but what my dad doesn't understand
is WHY i hate this girl so much, and no councellor is going to fix
that. I just have this feeling of TOTAL dislike for this girl and there
are only two things that will either satisfy me enough to get over it
and they are a) punching the crap outta her ...and b) well i cant say
what B is because then alot of you might be able to figure out who this
girl is and I don't want that. but anyways, now you all think i am some
psycho violent chick, and I'll tell you this. i could care less what
you think, and I am only violent towards her and just using this entry
to vent my anger towards HER!