if i would shoot myself in my head right now, that would b great
i think the subject saids all. I've been feeling really down 4 the pass few days. Believe it or not, i'm starting 2 thinking aboot my depression again, and abot killing myself again, which is not good at all.
I think all of this was caused by my friends, and the stress that i've been having in the pass few days. Its made me really feel bad aboot myself.
.....Y CAN'T I B HAPPY? Y CAN'T I HAVE FRIENDS? Y CAN'T PPL LIKE ME? Y CAN'T I B ACCEPTED? Y AM I ALWAYS SAD? Y DO I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IF I JUST DIE, NOBODY WOULD CARE? Y DOESN'T NE BODY CARE ABOOT ME?WAT DID I DO WRONG THAT MAKES EVERYBODY HATE ME? Y DO SO MANY BAD THINGS HAPPEN 2 ME?
i feel like nobody cares, nobody has time 4 me. All the friends i used 2 have, have all gotten a couple and r always w/ their significant other.
Wat if i just died? will NE body remember me? Would NE body care? Wat would i leave so that my memory could live on? Nothing, that's wat. Nobody cares aboot me while i'm alive, so y would NE body care aboot my when i'm dead.
But i won't kill myself, cuz the only thing important 2 me right now is my family, and dante. They're the 1's who do care aboot me. But i'm a teenager, i should have friends, i should b having a good time w/ my teen years, instead of waisting it crying aboot being alone.
Wat will i do when Dante leaves? Who would actually give me some value? Who would give a second glance at me? Will i just cuddle up into a little ball by myself and just rot, and would NE body care/notice?
....I AM NOT HAPPY......
I think all of this was caused by my friends, and the stress that i've been having in the pass few days. Its made me really feel bad aboot myself.
.....Y CAN'T I B HAPPY? Y CAN'T I HAVE FRIENDS? Y CAN'T PPL LIKE ME? Y CAN'T I B ACCEPTED? Y AM I ALWAYS SAD? Y DO I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IF I JUST DIE, NOBODY WOULD CARE? Y DOESN'T NE BODY CARE ABOOT ME?WAT DID I DO WRONG THAT MAKES EVERYBODY HATE ME? Y DO SO MANY BAD THINGS HAPPEN 2 ME?
i feel like nobody cares, nobody has time 4 me. All the friends i used 2 have, have all gotten a couple and r always w/ their significant other.
Wat if i just died? will NE body remember me? Would NE body care? Wat would i leave so that my memory could live on? Nothing, that's wat. Nobody cares aboot me while i'm alive, so y would NE body care aboot my when i'm dead.
But i won't kill myself, cuz the only thing important 2 me right now is my family, and dante. They're the 1's who do care aboot me. But i'm a teenager, i should have friends, i should b having a good time w/ my teen years, instead of waisting it crying aboot being alone.
Wat will i do when Dante leaves? Who would actually give me some value? Who would give a second glance at me? Will i just cuddle up into a little ball by myself and just rot, and would NE body care/notice?
....I AM NOT HAPPY......