bullshit
hey no one.. well right now i feel bymyself more then i ever have before.. its sucks!!! feels like when i was with jorge.. always bored at home.. him never really blahish.. just on the phone with him but nothing really else.. it sucked sadly! and now.. i feel as if eric is plain out sick of me... we're having problems and it sucks.. he's hardly ever here... here as in with me.. he wants to be with his friends.. great.. hell no its not great wtf!! i always want to be with him.. what is it that i have done wrong? i only try to make him happy even if it hurts the shit out of me.. :( is there something wrong with me?! am i that sickining to him that he just wants to be with his friends? AAAAHH!!! i'm seriosuly and literally going CRAZY! i'm MAD! someone help me!!! i feel like i'm gonna lose him... but if thats what he wants then... i caint do nething.. i've tried my best.. oh then when he hangs iwth his friends god forbid i go hang out with hte guys cuz dumped i'll be... thats so not even fair just cuz my friends are guys odens't mean anything.. they are al his friends also and non of them see me as nehting more then their little sister who is madly in love with eric.. so whats the big deal i ask? i dont know but eric sees it as a sin... i dont htink its fair cuz now he wants his friends instead of me... so what am i suppsoed to sit and wait to be wanted like i have been? its sad i tell u... well my life is starting to suck all over again.. i hate the world right now.. bye!