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So many thoughts, so many choices, conflicts, battles.... ah. I haven't had a decent night's sleep in about 3 weeks. If it's not one thing it's another. Something works out, the outcome is good... and then it's just something new to worry about. It's work, it's family, personal, mental, health.... I have good things to look forward to, very good things. But I can't even enjoy them, or look forward to enjoying them, because I just have all this other shit. And work... fucking Christ. Work is killing. Not because it's a hard job... it's my boss, my fellow employees... I generally like the people I work with as a person, but lately the majority of them have just REALLY been letting me down as a WORKER. No one's doing anything. If I don't do it, it doesn't get done. I took off three days the other month and when I came back it was chaos. I'm taking off three days again in November... I don't even want to know what it's going to be like when I get back. And Christmas is going to be FUCKING SHIT. Stupid ass paper work. Nothing will balances... NOTHING. This is definitely my last Christmas. I just can't do it. And I really think it's my boss's fault. It sucks that ONE person has just sucked out all of my drive and my energy in the work place. That one person makes me not want to go to work, makes me not want to anything, makes me resent her SOOO much, makes me want to QUIT. I just don't get it. I never used to mind going to work and now it's like... Friday can't come fast enough. And then my health issues. I've been to the doctor sooooo many times the last month. And now I'm probably going to have to get my tonsils taken out. I'm just trying to hold off until the holidays. I just can't take off anymore time. I really wish that I could go into all my other problems and concerns. I wish I could just type it all out. I don't know what that would accomplish... I don't know if I'd feel better or not. Maybe all this emotional shit is because of the hurricane. Wheather changes. I've heard of shit like that. I'm out.
Bye kiddies.
Bye kiddies.