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I had a really bad panic stricken weekend. I couldn't sleep, was worried sick I would lose my job, etc. I was so depressed that I was feeling suicidal (obviously I didn't do the deed.) The root at the time seemed to be work related. So I checked with my boss and says I'm doing fine (there's objective proof, a asked for and received raise and a totally unexpected bonus, PM's asking if they can have my time for project, etc.) But I still don't believe in myself. Being more than a little upset at the suicidal thought, I took myself off to see my therapist. After some discussion, the working hypothesis is that I have a self-esteem problem (Doh..) So any way we're (My therapist and I) starting to build my self-image.
I picked up a book he wants me to read/work through and we'll discuss it at next weeks session.
So I'm also going to try and get a social life too. It's time I got out of my cycle of werk, house, werk, house..
Wish me luck
I picked up a book he wants me to read/work through and we'll discuss it at next weeks session.
So I'm also going to try and get a social life too. It's time I got out of my cycle of werk, house, werk, house..
Wish me luck