Life goes on, even when it shouldn't
Since my sister's death in May, things are...different. They'll never be the same, because she was aside from my mum, the most important person in my life - and still is. She had a huge impact on me and was a huge part of my life. We are waiting to hear from the Crown prosecution service if a man will be charged with causing her death via careless driving. He overtook a huge lorry on the opposite side from my sister, and didn't leave enough time, she swerved and crashed into the lorry. The car driver got to work on time though...she died because a stupid arsehole HAD to move faster. I'm pissed at him. I don't hate him, but I want him punished. He doesn't think he did anything wrong, because HE didn't crash into her, and is apprantly an experienced driver. I don't care. if he hadn't overtaken my sister would still be here, she'd be married, she'd probably, hopefully, be pregnant now despite being terrified that she wouldn't be able to have a baby due to endometrious and now, all that is gone, forever. We're trying to get on with our lives. I'm doing a masters degree in Human Rights and Justice at my uni law school, which I love, one of my brothers is getting divorced (my sister never liked his wife) and my mum will never properly recover from loosing her baby girl, her youngest. We can smile, laugh and do things but everything is tinged now. Everything we do, experience will feel wrong because she should be there. Her fiance is still a part of our family thankfully and we love him, but every birthday, valentines, christmas...he's 28 and lost the love of his life. Ive lost a best friend, confidant, partner in crime, advisor...someone who I adored and respected for nothing, to save a few minutes on a car journey. He could SEE my sister's car when he was overtaking, he KNEW the road, he KNEW he was on a corner and about to go to a roundabout and would have to slow down anyway, but he still overtook. I want him to release what he's done. What he's destroyed. I want people to THINK when they are in a car or cyling or walking that their actions and choices affect everyone around them. Cars aren't toys. My sister said when she passed her driving test she was scared, because she was driving something that could potentially kill someone if she didn't pay attension....
I love her. I miss her.
I love her. I miss her.