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what is the scene?[11 Jan 2005|08:51am][mood|contemplative][music|reel big fish. oh no. song switch. straylight run.]
This is something that I have been thinking about for quite a long time.
It feels like a lot of the people in my life come and go so quickly. A lot of my friends are the kind that want to be friends with everyone. They know tons of people, and they can't stay in one place. To a certain extent, I am the same way. I feel like I stay grounded enough however to at least be there for all of friends all of the time, but certain others only come around when they feel like I am another person they need to know or someone they need to be friends with because they need to be friends with everyone. There will be times when certain friends talk to me or call me many times in a week, and then we won't talk for a month. I have a lot of aquaintances, but if I don't make an effort to talk to them or be better friends with them, they become very upset and ask me why I am not speaking to them or why I have not been there. It gets to the point where I don't really feel like I have any real friends that I can be with. This is hard to explain. It's something that I have all worked out in my head, but i can't express it. One day they will want to hang out, but come that weekend, they have found cooler, better kids to hang around. I guess I don't want to be that cool-er kid so to speak, and I don't want to be second best either. It also seems like whenever these so called "cooler" kids turn their backs on my friends, i am the one that is left to pick up the pieces. What kind of friends are these, anyway? Who would do that to their friends? I sure as hell wouldn't, and I would hope no one would do that to me. This is just something I can't figure out. I know that I want to be friends with everyone, but it wouldn't get to the point where I would start looking for these kids. I mean, if I am going to make new friends, then they'll come to me. I'll meet them in random places, I'll run into them when I'm out somewhere. Is there a standard that you have to live up to in this city to be under this label? I think that's ridiculous. i wish everyone could just hold hands and sing. not have these little groups within one big genre that is so cliche anyway. oh em gee. I can't even describe it.
what is the scene?[11 Jan 2005|08:51am][mood|contemplative][music|reel big fish. oh no. song switch. straylight run.]
This is something that I have been thinking about for quite a long time.
It feels like a lot of the people in my life come and go so quickly. A lot of my friends are the kind that want to be friends with everyone. They know tons of people, and they can't stay in one place. To a certain extent, I am the same way. I feel like I stay grounded enough however to at least be there for all of friends all of the time, but certain others only come around when they feel like I am another person they need to know or someone they need to be friends with because they need to be friends with everyone. There will be times when certain friends talk to me or call me many times in a week, and then we won't talk for a month. I have a lot of aquaintances, but if I don't make an effort to talk to them or be better friends with them, they become very upset and ask me why I am not speaking to them or why I have not been there. It gets to the point where I don't really feel like I have any real friends that I can be with. This is hard to explain. It's something that I have all worked out in my head, but i can't express it. One day they will want to hang out, but come that weekend, they have found cooler, better kids to hang around. I guess I don't want to be that cool-er kid so to speak, and I don't want to be second best either. It also seems like whenever these so called "cooler" kids turn their backs on my friends, i am the one that is left to pick up the pieces. What kind of friends are these, anyway? Who would do that to their friends? I sure as hell wouldn't, and I would hope no one would do that to me. This is just something I can't figure out. I know that I want to be friends with everyone, but it wouldn't get to the point where I would start looking for these kids. I mean, if I am going to make new friends, then they'll come to me. I'll meet them in random places, I'll run into them when I'm out somewhere. Is there a standard that you have to live up to in this city to be under this label? I think that's ridiculous. i wish everyone could just hold hands and sing. not have these little groups within one big genre that is so cliche anyway. oh em gee. I can't even describe it.