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I'm not going to write an organized entry. I'm just going to write my thoughts as they come because I have 40 minutes to kill. Besides, if I write any of this in a facebook status, people are either going to get worried about me or get pissed off at me because they think I'm seeking attention. I'm not. I just want to get things off my chest and this is probably the best way.
I'm in the library at the couches. I'm with two other girls and this guy who's like 50 years old. We're all on our laptops. He won't turn the sound off on his. I want to punch him. And now his phone's making noises. SERIOUSLY!
I really want to be the witch in Into the Woods. Hell, I really want to be cast in the damn production. I'll be crushed it I don't. But, I know I'll also be crushed if I end up being Granny again or one of Cinderella's step-family just because I don't mesh well with the others. I KNOW I can pull off the witch better than anyone who's auditioned/auditioning, but I'm terrified I won't get it. Hell, what if I don't even get a callback? I was the first one to audition. Did I audition too soon?
Brian Conklin is getting on my nerves. Why is he always around? Why does he always have to talk? Why does he always have to talk to Anneliese about things that I can't relate to? Why does he say creepy shit to me? I mean, yes, it was funny the first time he said that if he was a girl he'd lock himself in his room and play with his boobs all the time, but he's said it at least a thousand times since then. It's not funny anymore! It's awkward and stupid! And telling me to go to his room and wait for him there. "Or we can go to the basement." Sick!
I'm pretty sure I'm scaring off Jon. He told me to contact him more and I am. Now, I'm pretty sure I'm annoying to him now. I don't contact him every day, but I still think I'm annoying. Maybe it's all in my head. I keep having dreams about him. Last night we were back at Summit and I felt like I was too old and I was sure he wasn't there, but he showed up. We almost made out but then Angelina Jolie came in and started teaching an acting class and I'm just going to stop there because I just don't feel like going into it. In another one I went to visit him, but Mike Portnoy, Rachel Bloch, and my roommate, Olivia was also staying there and we made out. Hours later he asked if it was a big deal because he's kind of interested in this guy. Yeah, I had a dream where he came out to me. The night before that, I had a dream where I found out Amanda Jones had a crush on him and was trying to get him, which is retarded because she's never even met him. I need help!
I'm in the library at the couches. I'm with two other girls and this guy who's like 50 years old. We're all on our laptops. He won't turn the sound off on his. I want to punch him. And now his phone's making noises. SERIOUSLY!
I really want to be the witch in Into the Woods. Hell, I really want to be cast in the damn production. I'll be crushed it I don't. But, I know I'll also be crushed if I end up being Granny again or one of Cinderella's step-family just because I don't mesh well with the others. I KNOW I can pull off the witch better than anyone who's auditioned/auditioning, but I'm terrified I won't get it. Hell, what if I don't even get a callback? I was the first one to audition. Did I audition too soon?
Brian Conklin is getting on my nerves. Why is he always around? Why does he always have to talk? Why does he always have to talk to Anneliese about things that I can't relate to? Why does he say creepy shit to me? I mean, yes, it was funny the first time he said that if he was a girl he'd lock himself in his room and play with his boobs all the time, but he's said it at least a thousand times since then. It's not funny anymore! It's awkward and stupid! And telling me to go to his room and wait for him there. "Or we can go to the basement." Sick!
I'm pretty sure I'm scaring off Jon. He told me to contact him more and I am. Now, I'm pretty sure I'm annoying to him now. I don't contact him every day, but I still think I'm annoying. Maybe it's all in my head. I keep having dreams about him. Last night we were back at Summit and I felt like I was too old and I was sure he wasn't there, but he showed up. We almost made out but then Angelina Jolie came in and started teaching an acting class and I'm just going to stop there because I just don't feel like going into it. In another one I went to visit him, but Mike Portnoy, Rachel Bloch, and my roommate, Olivia was also staying there and we made out. Hours later he asked if it was a big deal because he's kind of interested in this guy. Yeah, I had a dream where he came out to me. The night before that, I had a dream where I found out Amanda Jones had a crush on him and was trying to get him, which is retarded because she's never even met him. I need help!